So, I am not 100% better.. I still have some weird side effects, but I am no longer taking Cymbalta! I have been wanting to come off this drug for awhile now , I tried once, failed. Then another time, Nope. And 3rd time , well I guess this was the charm. Let me tell you... the withdrawal , terrible. My pdoc increased the Seroquel to level it out..and it was ok for a few days then all of sudden bam... it began. I sweated, it wasn't even like sweating it was a damp cold clammy sweat when after you get sick or have the shits. My moods were terrible. The crying spells, I had to be watched. I was very Manic Depressive. I was sick to my stomach, vomiting etc. I couldn't sleep, I stayed up until 4am and had sleep paralysis. I honestly wanted to give in and go back on it, just so I could not have these side effects. I pushed thru it. It took me about 2 weeks of hell and now it's tolerable, I am starting to feel better where I can actually drive again with out getting sick.
I am getting a little worried tho..because now that I am no longer on any SSRI, or SRNI.. I am starting to feel a lil wound up and agitated. Very hyper too. Hoping this will pass.
Anyway just wanted to express that I made it (so far), even tho I wanted to go to in-patient and my t doc wanted me to go to, I didn't. I fought thru this.
If any of you came off this drug , how long did it take you to sort of feel balanced again and get off that rocky boat.
Hi everyone, I'm Olive. I've never been a member of anything like this, but I am looking forward to meeting other people like me and being able to share my experiences, some of which are a little nutty. But here I am in a nutshell:
Ph.D student in Neuroscience
vintage clothing aficionado
manic depressive, shcizoaffective-type.
I'm happy to be here.
I was diagnosed with severe anxiety disorder.,gad,,ocd.and depression.....at age 18...ive a a very long battle with this....but thanks to the help of many medications....Zoloft.paxil.klonipin...life was tolerable....over the years ive moved a lot seen different doctors .got different medications....now where I live and the doctors ive been seeing for the past 5 years have diagnosed me with bipolar disorder....ive been on a ton of different mood stabalizers ..antisycotics..and benzopenes...all the while its been a straight downward spiral to hell...have not been right for a long time now....this week my doctor decided to put me on lithium,,i thought I was going to die,,,,,,,,,had a blood test yesterday and he says I cant be on it..i couldn't walk..couldn't breathe normally..started to stutter..could not speak a sentence that made any sence.....I was on lamictal for the past two years I kept going back and telling him I cant think..i cant do a math problem..im talking to fast..i cant read or write..his answer was to raise the dosage of the lamictal.everytime he raised it I got worst..so this week is when he decided to put me on the lithium and take me off of the lamictal...now yesterday he puts me on saphris................im starting to question the fact if im even bipolar .................I feel like a test rabbit.....not to mention Im off the lithium since yesterday but still shaking slightly stuttering.cant think straight...my question is if the anti- anxiety and ant- deppresants worked better...im probably not bipolar....as the same giving me mood stabalizers and antsycotics are making me crazy as hell...sorry about the spelling,,,brain is not functioning properly........ : )
By Miss Blue
Okay, so I live with my mom and my grandparents. My mom is going through some serious stuff right now.
A couple years ago she was in a back car crash where a little car pulled right out in front of her van and she broad sided them. It gave her serious whiplash problems with her neck. (Luckily, the other drive was ok).
About a year ago, she fell and hit her head really hard on the corner of our concrete step (right between the eyes). We took her to the emergency and about half way through the visit, she started acting really loopy (wanting to get out of bed and wander around, super cheerful, wanting to stay to look at the art after she had been released (we had been there around 5+ hours at this point, it was around 3 or 4 AM).
I've noticed over the past 5 or so years her mood has progressively gotten more and more unpredictable. She'll sway dramatically from being super upbeat and positive about the future to thinking everything is absolutely horrible and breaking things and throwing stuff.
She's been unemployed for around 8 years now, but she has a masters in speech, a 4 yr in occupational therapy, and a 4 yr in social work, so it's not like she can't function and apply herself. But my uncle died, and then all this stuff happened, and she basically fell apart.
it seems like it's been getting progressively worse for these last few months. She holds some serious grudges against my grandparents for things that happened when she was a kid/teen/young adult, and even though they give her a roof over her head, don't make her pay rent, and let her eat their food, and basically make a mess out of the house at times, she still acts as if she's been seriously wronged.
I know I can't relate to where she's coming from since I didn't have the same situations as she did growing up, but I hate when I get placed in the middle of things, even though she claims she doesn't.
The most recent thing that happened, was she consulted a chiropractor, that said that he would be able to help her with her neck. Her neck injury is so severe that she can't lift or lower her head, and has to keep it at a... 90 degree angle from her neck, if that makes sense? Basically it's looking straight forward, and not up or down at all. We found out that a few of her neck vertebrae are so bad that they are basically flipped and completely out of alignment. Like, one is completely tilted the wrong way, or something.
Anyway, my grandpa asked how much the chiropractor visit would cost, and she lost it, since money is a sore spot for her. I know my grandpa was just trying to plan a head, but she took it completely the wrong way, and from that point on, it's been like walking on egg shells around her. She's started saying she won't take another cent from him, despite the fact that he's told me he doesn't mind helping her financially at all, it's just that he needs to know a head of time the price of things so he can plan his budget accordingly.
I just feel completely useless and helpless in this case. I love both my mom and my grandfather dearly, and there's just this huge gap that's widening between them right now and I can't do anything about it. I keep telling my mom she needs to talk to a counselor, and not me, who is someone from her family and not removed, but so far she hasn't taken my advice.
I just feel... so drained. I'm already stressed because of a full load of college courses that suck up 70% of my time, and an internship that sucks up the other 5%, so I have hardly any free time to just calm down, and usually when I do have free time, my mom is stomping around in a pissed off mood which then sets off my anxiety and i end up with a minor anxiety attack over it.
My mom also has taken to self diagnosing herself. I keep telling her she needs to get diagnosed by a professional and she keeps saying she will, but she never does. First she thought all her symptoms were from whiplash, then it was PTSD, and now it's bipolar/manic depression.
I just don't know what to do. I feel so bad for my grandpa. He doesn't deserve to have her yelling at him all the time. And I also feel really bad for my mom, because of all these issues she has. I just wish there was something I could do to help someone.
I just feel so useless.
Just wanted to introduce myself. I picked my name because it's something I used to say to my mother all the time and it drove her nuts! (so to speak). She hated it.
My main ailment is ADD, primarily innatentive which I think they should rename to something like Diffused Attention Syndrom because I don't ever feel like I'm not paying attention (ok, sometimes I know that I'm spacing out) and I notice ALL KINDS OF THINGS that other people don't even realize are happening... so I feel like I pay a freakin LOT of attention, just not always to what YOU want me too. Even when I am paying attention to what I'm "supposed to" I still notice and see a lot MORE than most people seem to.
I also have anxiety not otherwise specified... so bland! I said to the therapist- "Can't you give me something better?"
OCD in the form of hoarding... but I also do things like pick at my legs and pull my eyelashes out and have obsessive thoughts (like sometimes-rarely anymore- I obsessively think about running my finger over the edge of a piece of broken glass... I don't want to do it nor do I feel compelled to do it, but I can't get the image out of my mind)
My mother was diagnosed with "Manic Depression" which we know know as "Bipolar Disorder"... my therapist said that I could possibly have cyclothymia (a mild form of bipolar) and I think it's very likely but we never got far enough to diagnose it properly. I have delt with depression bunches.
I have some social phobias, but they are much better now and I really love people and being in social situations, but it can be difficult at times. In school I was "painfully shy" and terrified of rejection. Like I said, nowdays I'm much better.
I have allergies and asthma... but what does this have to do with being crazy? (looking at the various boards)
I am a big time procrastinator, probably related to stress and ADD and whatever...
I'm not really a self injurer but I can relate in some ways.......
And finally I am very interested in psychology, esp. abnormal pscych and "crazy people" in general.
And I'm a lefty... not that that matters!
I guess that probably covers it.