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My name is Lux, and I am a 23-year-old force of nature. I make money as a bike messenger and freelance reporter. In my spare time, I like to write fiction, dabble in photography, and watch quality films.

I have been in psychiatric treatment since I was 14. I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, anorexia, bulimia, alcohol addiction (recovered), and a dissociative disorder. I have been on nearly every psychotropic drug there is (quite literally). I have been in mental hospitals and eating disorders hospitals about six or seven times.

I currently just got out of a six-week stay at an eating disorders facility. This time, I am truly very motivated to get better and working hard at it, although it is a struggle.

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Lux, welcome to Crazyboards. Please read the User Agreement when you get time, as it avoids problems later on.

Also, this site is indexed by google. It's perfectly okay to put pictures of yourself up on your signature, as long as you realize how many thousands of people google this site every day looking for information about meds, etc. Some of our members prefer to remain anonymous, and we encourage that. However, if you want to identify yourself, that's okay.

I'm glad you are motivated to become stable and well, and I hope we can provide some support and information.

olga

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Hi Lux, and welcome. It sounds like you have a lot of interesting things in your life! Good luck with your recovery

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