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[rawrgrrness]

Hi my name is Megan

 

Currently in my third year in college. Been going through off and on depression and it's getting pretty bad this time. I just kinda lost my best friend/boyfriend recently and it's all my fault.

 

I'm just feeling alone and abandoned... we used to live together but he moved out because he said I was so pushy. He also has a new baby with this other girl. And I guess i pushed him so far that he decided he needed to be his son all the time now. he said because i was so pushy i pushed him away from me.

 

This story so long... Maybe I'll share it soon. But it short he was my best friend for 8 years of my life. He was the one I felt like I could conquer the world with. And now that he has that son that is his world now. I know it's selfish but I just want him back in my life. He used to come home every night and it'd be normal and he'd pick up his son in the morning and stuff. But there's no going back to just having his son during the day.. And I'm afraid he's just gonna get back with the mother of his child and try to be a family with her. Even though they've always had a hard time being together.

 

I know this is alot but these thoughts just run through my mind all the time. I feel abandoned.

 

 

Thanks for reading

[Phoenix_Rising]

Hi Megan and Welcome to CB!

 

I'm sorry to hear about your best/boy friend.  It is never easy to lose someone we cherish and that often makes our illnesses flare up or worsen.  

 

I hope you'll check out the boards and chat.  There's also a place for you to start a blog.

[olga]

Hi and welcome to Crazyboards.  I usually ask new members to read the User Agreement, so I hope you will do that when you get a chance.

 

If you aren't seeing a therapist, you might want to consider finding one.  Most colleges have a counseling office, and maybe there is someone there with whom you could talk.

 

I'm glad you came here and I hope you like Crazyboards.

 

olga