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I was curious how many people have been separated from parents or someone else in your early childhood? I think it caused my BPD. It would explain a lot. I started seeing a counselor at age 10 at the recommendation of my teacher. This counselor said if I am ever diagnosed with problems my separation from my birth parents and previous neglect are most likely the cause. I am just curious if anyone else has been separated. I read it is a common history for those with BPD. In my signature is my story... revised.... very much revised. My full story is long but for anyone actually willing to read it look below. You don't have to though. What about you? Were you separated as a child? What's your story? If you don't want to go too deep I understand and you can just answer with  yes or no or something. 

 

P.S. Before you read my story you should know I still talk with my birth parents through text and see my birth dad once a year-though not last year-which is always very awkward.

 

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The cause of my borderline personality disorder I think is my first year of life-in this life anyways. A lot of people with it were separated at a young age from their caregivers. I was separated from my birth parents. 

My dad lost custody of me to my mom. My mom's mom (my grandma) and her grandma (My great grandma) were working together to take custody of away from her saying she was emotionally unstable (Which she was and is-like VERY unstable) and about how I suffered from neglect (Which I did). 

My mom poured my food on the floor (No bowl or anything), never got me clothes, never bathed me-only got bathed when my aunt (Dad's sister) came over to babysit (Whom is also a witness to my neglect)-so I was constantly filthy, and didn't get me diapers-though my grandmother always did.

And about her being emotionally unstable she would have emotional meltdowns, did drugs, dated most screwed up men (One who sexually abused my little sister-and got sent to prison), is an EXTREME liar, and when she was a kid she went to school one day-middle school-with her baby picture and claimed it was her baby. Yea she has a lot of problems.

So in the end of the whole court thing she just decided to sign the papers and give me up. I was separated from her and placed in a new home-with my great aunt (dad's side) and great uncle (No blood relation) who were physically unable to have kids of their own. 

I LOVE my birth mother very much-but she's insane. And I LOVE my birth dad, adoptive dad, and adoptive mother very much as well.

So there you have it. My first year of life and the most likely cause of my borderline personality disorder. While my current home may not have been the most stable. It was more stable then that and I've had a great life with them. :)

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Yes, I was separated from my father at the age of nine.  I was abused after that, so I don't think that's the whole picture, but it definitely contributed to my developing BPD.  I think it makes sense that early attachment trauma is related to BPD.

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I was separated from my birth mother and two months...because she went psycho and tried to kill me and my siblings. 

 

I had my dad, but he moved out when I was ten. 

I have separation anxiety like a bitch.

 

I'm almost for certain that childhood trauma helped contributed to my BPD.

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I was taken from my birth mother when i was 5 without explanation. I can safely say it was one of the most traumatic and heartbreaking times of my life. Shes dead now. I was "given" to my abusive father untill he ditched me aged 7. Im 25 years old and i still miss my mum. Though i now understand the reasons why she couldnt keep me. I was offered no explanation as a child. It still breaks my heart.

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