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Timmer

Friendly 30 yo gay male with issues

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Hello ladies and especially gentleman! I'm Tim. I just recently came across the site, and I've got plenty to talk about. I've suffered from depression and anxiety (with occasional panic attacks) on and off for the last 15 years or so. Wow! That's half my life. In addition, I suffer from chronic pain, partially from a herniated disk in my L5 vertebra and probably one of them in my neck as well. I suffer from cough syncope, which basically means that coughing a lot can cause a vasovagal response which causes me to faint. The fact that I'm way overweight doesn't help matters much. There are also some issues that have not yet being diagnosed, but at the time of this post, I am going to be having nerve tests in my left arm as well as my face. My current meds are Xanax .5 mg, Norco 7.5/325 (hydrocodone/acetaminophen), Ultram 50 mg, Oxybutanin 5 mg (urinary urgency), Buspar 5 mg, Zoloft 50 mg, Neurontin 300 mg (for nerve pain), Zanaflex 2 mg, and Albuterol Inhaler.

 

I am working on my issues and hope to one day be able to rejoin the workforce. Ultimately, I prefer to be my own boss. Before I can get there, I am going to need to work with my therapist some more and have bariatric surgery. Other surgeries may follow, and there's definitely some physical therapy in my future as well. I firmly believe that I can overcome most of my health problems, and I am hopeful that I can get my life and health on a good track.

 

I look forward to getting to know everyone here. We all have our struggles, and I am not only here for support but to support others as well. :)

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Welcome!  I think you'll find this corner of the Internet to be a supportive place.  I'm glad you found us.   

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Welcome to Crazyboards.  I ask all newcomers to read the User Agreement, so you will understand how we operate.

 

Don't be afraid to contact a mod if you don't understand something.  This is a great group of people and I hope you enjoy hanging out with us.

 

olga

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welcome

 

Timothy, if that is your real name you might want to ask a mod or admin to consider helping you change it

to protect your privacy

 

CrazyBoards is accessed by google and you might not want future employers or friends and family

reading your posts.

 

If you do some reading here you will see that almost all of us use an anonymous user name.

Edited by bpladybug

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welcome

 

Timothy, if that is your real name you might want to ask a mod or admin to consider helping you change it

to protect your privacy

 

CrazyBoards is accessed by google and you might not want future employers or friends and family

reading your posts.

 

If you do some reading here you will see that almost all of us use an anonymous user name.

Thanks! I did go ahead and have my name changed. I signed up with FB, so that is why my name was on it. Anyway, all better now. :)

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Hiya Timmer,

 

Welcome to the boards. I really like your attitude. You are positive and assertive. Even if you fall from that occasionally, it is the best approach to mental illness.

 

There are so many people to meet here that will be able to relate to you - and you to them.

 

Welcome to Crazyboards, where 'crazy' is normal.

 

Cheers,

 

grousemosue.

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