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I have been stumbling along trying so hard to keep anyone from noticing how hard I struggle. I am scared of people around me knowing what is actually going on for me. I am getting really tired of being so alone, I know the next logical step is to see a professional. Until I work up the courage I would appreciate meeting other people that have come out of hiding.

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I also hide a lot of my struggles when at all possible. Sometimes shit hits the fan and I am batshit, and can't hide anything no matter how hard I try. But hey, shit happens!


Yes, the next step will be to see a professional.


But until then, enjoy the company around here! We're a great bunch of folks, if I do say so myself!


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Welcome to Crazyboards!  I'm sorry I didn't greet you sooner, but I had a wacky weekend.


I ask all new members to read the User Agreement:  if you did that when you signed up, then you're all set!


I agree with Wonderful Cheese that seeing a professional is probably the best thing you can do.  But if it helps you to read some of the boards and communicate with other people who have issues similar to yours----well, it's a good start.  You are very welcome here and I hope you like being a part of our community.



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