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Hello, all!


I have to admit, I'm ready for a peer group, be it virtual or otherwise, to act as a sounding board for the erratic staging ground that is my consciousness. I've been struggling with bipolar my whole adult life, but was only diagnosed about five years ago. It's been up and down ever since, but within a narrower range of extremes than before I was medicated. The last few years have been a long period of adjustment to new ways of being--and feeling, and acting--and I have been chafing under the restrictions that seem to be required of living a healthy lifestyle free of triggers and provocations. I've missed hypomania and the particular magic that comes with it. I miss having a brain that can regularly surprise me with insights and intuitions. I don't really care for this feeling of suppression that has come along with stability. So, at turns, I've been a little cavalier with my meds; and I haven't been putting a great deal of effort into my mental hygiene the past while.


Which has led to a consequent rocky, roily, unstable last few months, and those capped off with a few scary, black weeks that I am just now climbing out of. This scare has helped me re-orient my perspective on managing my illness, and I think an important part of that may be finding some kind of community that I can relate to, communicate with, and access on a regular basis. I like the look of it here. It feels like somewhere I could contribute and make connections. I'm happy that it exists.


Hopefully I'll be reading and writing with many of you in the future.

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Hi and welcome.

I think you will really like it here, the people are so great. I've gotten support from everyone in dark and lonely times. 

Also I want to say, Gir is awesome. :)

Hope to see more of you.

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Hello and Welcome to Crazyboards!


I think you will find this to be a very supportive community where you give and get a lot of information.


We ask all our new members to read the User Agreement just so we're all on the same page.


I look forward to seeing you on the Boards!

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