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7 hours ago, melissaw72 said:

Do you have any PRNs you can take that would help you get through the day?

Unfortunately, I have no PRNs at all. Right now things are okay; while I am mixed, I am very mildly mixed, and things are all right all things considered. My bigger concern is that the last few days I have crashed in the evening. I will be in the car when that is at its worst and I will not be driving, thank god. But the thing is I expect this to likely repeat itself the next few days at least.

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2 minutes ago, Closure said:

Unfortunately, I have no PRNs at all. Right now things are okay; while I am mixed, I am very mildly mixed, and things are all right all things considered. My bigger concern is that the last few days I have crashed in the evening. I will be in the car when that is at its worst and I will not be driving, thank god. But the thing is I expect this to likely repeat itself the next few days at least.

I hope things stay okay for you.  If you crash at night, if people are around, could you say you are tired and heading to bed early?  Then you wouldn't have to be are anyone.

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3 minutes ago, melissaw72 said:

I hope things stay okay for you.  If you crash at night, if people are around, could you say you are tired and heading to bed early?  Then you wouldn't have to be are anyone.

It'd be highly out of character for me to go to bed early. But my parents already know that I am symptomatic mood-wise - they can often just tell from the tone of my voice and my expression - and I am generally okay with them knowing this, as opposed to some other things, so I do not feel the need to hide it from them. The main thing, though, is that I find it hard to help take care of my daughter when I am markedly depressed.

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6 minutes ago, Closure said:

It'd be highly out of character for me to go to bed early. But my parents already know that I am symptomatic mood-wise - they can often just tell from the tone of my voice and my expression - and I am generally okay with them knowing this, as opposed to some other things, so I do not feel the need to hide it from them. The main thing, though, is that I find it hard to help take care of my daughter when I am markedly depressed.

That is good your parents know a little about you mood-wise.  Maybe they can distract your daughter with something to do so you have a little break?

(I don't mean to go on about this, I'm just thinking of things here and there hoping that maybe one of them might help).

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2 minutes ago, melissaw72 said:

That is good your parents know a little about you mood-wise.  Maybe they can distract your daughter with something to do so you have a little break?

(I don't mean to go on about this, I'm just thinking of things here and there hoping that maybe one of them might help).

My parents already do plenty as it is, and I manage to get in breaks, e.g. when my daughter is using her tablet or when she is doing art stuff with my mom (who's always been the art person in the family). But as I mentioned in the coping strategies thread, just the general busyness of things stresses me, even if I am not directly involved, and the more symptomatic I am the more it stresses me.

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5 hours ago, Closure said:

My parents already do plenty as it is, and I manage to get in breaks, e.g. when my daughter is using her tablet or when she is doing art stuff with my mom (who's always been the art person in the family). But as I mentioned in the coping strategies thread, just the general busyness of things stresses me, even if I am not directly involved, and the more symptomatic I am the more it stresses me.

Oh ok, I see what you mean.  I hope you get through it ok.  I can empathize with being stressed all the time.

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6 hours ago, Closure said:

I think I am getting so irritated by the kids today due to being mixed... damn cycling...

I hear you.  I used to love being with kids and was so patient way back when.  Now they stress me out and irritate the crap out of me, and I become so impatient. 

I'm sorry you are still mixed ... hopefully today will be better.  I get so agitated and irritable to the extreme when mixed, like 'don't fuck me right now' type of thing.  Idk if this is how you feel too, but if so I know what it is like.  Except for me that is without kids around.

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10 hours ago, melissaw72 said:

I hear you.  I used to love being with kids and was so patient way back when.  Now they stress me out and irritate the crap out of me, and I become so impatient. 

I'm sorry you are still mixed ... hopefully today will be better.  I get so agitated and irritable to the extreme when mixed, like 'don't fuck me right now' type of thing.  Idk if this is how you feel too, but if so I know what it is like.  Except for me that is without kids around.

My OCD and control issues often make me at least a bit stressed and irritated around children to begin with. And this is despite my daughter being a wonderful child all around. Mixed mood amplifies this at least to how things were yesterday. Mind you yesterday was a very mild mixed mood - in a more pronounced mixed mood I would likely be extremely irritated, such that I would have a very, very hard time being around children. This is particularly bad when I am stuck caring for my daughter by myself, and especially if we are someplace with many kids around.

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4 hours ago, Closure said:

My OCD and control issues often make me at least a bit stressed and irritated around children to begin with.

I see what you mean ... I understand the stress and being irritable, and cant imagine being around children at the same time. 

Oh man ... being somewhere with kids around (many kids) in one place ... I would have a hard time dealing with that too.  Any chance she could go back to her mom's house a day early?

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3 hours ago, melissaw72 said:

I see what you mean ... I understand the stress and being irritable, and cant imagine being around children at the same time. 

Oh man ... being somewhere with kids around (many kids) in one place ... I would have a hard time dealing with that too.  Any chance she could go back to her mom's house a day early?

My mood shifted, and now she's not irritating me as much, for now at least... like this I can tolerate things. I don't know how long it will last before I get irritable again, though. The thing is we only get to have my daughter over for this long so often, so it feels like we have to take advantage of the time the best we can, even if it requires me putting up with my irritability.

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I'm new here and I usually don't use online boards for support, but thought I'd give it a try. I was off meds for 3 years and would still be if it weren't for this unusual depressive episode. 

I hate meds. Hate feeling groggy, numb and lifeless. Hate the weight gain and hate that my moods are determined by a cocktail of chemicals. However, I also hate inpatient care and my therapist gave me only two choices; meds or a stay on the unit. 

 

I chose meds. 

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3 hours ago, Closure said:

My mood shifted, and now she's not irritating me as much, for now at least... like this I can tolerate things. I don't know how long it will last before I get irritable again, though. The thing is we only get to have my daughter over for this long so often, so it feels like we have to take advantage of the time the best we can, even if it requires me putting up with my irritability.

That is great to hear!  I really hope it lasts. 

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32 minutes ago, It's that manic dance said:

I'm new here and I usually don't use online boards for support, but thought I'd give it a try. I was off meds for 3 years and would still be if it weren't for this unusual depressive episode. 

I hate meds. Hate feeling groggy, numb and lifeless. Hate the weight gain and hate that my moods are determined by a cocktail of chemicals. However, I also hate inpatient care and my therapist gave me only two choices; meds or a stay on the unit. 

 

I chose meds. 

Just want to welcome you to CB!

I'm glad you decided to join!  Lots of support here between everyone.

I hate IP care also.  Maybe the meds' side effects will go away in time.  They have for me at times.  Sometimes it can take 6-8 weeks for a med/s to settle in and for side effects to possibly go away.

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8 hours ago, It's that manic dance said:

I'm new here and I usually don't use online boards for support, but thought I'd give it a try. I was off meds for 3 years and would still be if it weren't for this unusual depressive episode. 

I hate meds. Hate feeling groggy, numb and lifeless. Hate the weight gain and hate that my moods are determined by a cocktail of chemicals. However, I also hate inpatient care and my therapist gave me only two choices; meds or a stay on the unit. 

 

I chose meds. 

I'm happy you chose the meds, even though they may have some side effects, feeling lousy because of the mood cycles you get into are even worse and you could end up hurting yourself or others. Glad you have taken steps to control that! Welcome to CB!

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8 hours ago, It's that manic dance said:

I'm new here and I usually don't use online boards for support, but thought I'd give it a try. I was off meds for 3 years and would still be if it weren't for this unusual depressive episode. 

I hate meds. Hate feeling groggy, numb and lifeless. Hate the weight gain and hate that my moods are determined by a cocktail of chemicals. However, I also hate inpatient care and my therapist gave me only two choices; meds or a stay on the unit. 

 

I chose meds. 

I'm happy you chose the meds, even though they may have some side effects, feeling lousy because of the mood cycles you get into are even worse and you could end up hurting yourself or others. Glad you have taken steps to control that! Welcome to CB!

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