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Here I am! Just how the hell did I get here?


I wandered into the forum by clicking on a link after googling "C-PTSD support." When I realized that I had been reading threads for over two hours and was getting jealous that I wasn't involved in this community, a solution presented itself to me...




I don't really know what I expect to get out of posting or what I will post, but as with most things in my life, eventually, I'll figure it out. I'm hoping to connect with others that are going through similar experiences, and to receive support and provide it. 


A little something about myself would be appropriate here, I suppose. I am 29, a single mother of a delightful little girl who is living with autism, and I am divorced. The doc I've been seeing for mental health put "PTSD (Complex)" in my file yesterday after evaluating me for emotional/psychological disorders. I suspected that would be the dx, and I am actually a little relieved that there is a name and treatment for what I'm living with. 


The C-PTSD is largely a result of my relationship with my ex-husband. People use the term "narcissist" lightly, but the ex actually has it in his medical file. The psychological trauma he inflicted on me during the 8 years of our marriage caused a lot of damage to my mental and physical health, and I'm just now starting to sort out the pieces that were broken and busted.


So that's where I'm at on my journey. I look forward to getting to know you better. See you on the boards!



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