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GREAT.  I exercised today AND ate healthy at The Olive Garden- believe it or not.  I ordered their new cod piccata off the light fair menu and paired it with steamed broccoli.  

I look thinner in the face area today and maybe even my butt.  :-)

I am ready for some storms this weekend.  

I see my doc tomorrow and get to tell her I'm doing good on the med tweak thus far.  

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My mind was racing all day, and I was talking very fast ... even my mom asked me to slow down because she couldn't understand me.  Energy was as usual.  Fell asleep for 1.5 hours, and I woke up feeling a lot better.

This morning (early on), at pdoc appt, after I'd been there for 20 minutes, my pdoc did my blood pressure and pulse.  Resting pulse was 96 (usual) and in terms of BP, the bottom number is 98.  The top was normal.  After standing up for about 5 minutes, he took BP and pulse again.  BP was about the same, but my resting pulse (while standing up) went to 138 bpm.  My mind had been thinking fast, but I wasn't running all over the place.  I had a little anxiety but not that much.  Then went to GI office, and pulse was resting 112.

And I had to stop propranolol because I have been dizzy, look clumsy when I walk, extra tired, etc.  But I think I might need it to keep my heart rate down.

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I feel pretty awesome but my friend said she got harassed by some dudes at the park where we walked today and she felt very threatened by it.  She was walking way ahead of me and I had my headphones on so i did not witness it.  We will probably not walk there anymore.  :-(  We will have to walk in other locations.  It's really a shame.  The park is a beautiful place in a very safe town but you never know what you're gonna get.  Better be safe than sorry.  

Yeah, i walked AGAIN today. *slow clap*  I also swam bit.  I have a little sunburn but nothing too extreme.

It's been a good day.  

Tomorrow back to painting.  It will rain so I will stay in I guess.  

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Frustrated.  I got what could objectively be seen as the best outcome possible for someone after substantial negotiation (essentially the other side is paying the costs and doing repairs exactly the way we are requesting) and yet got subjected to a thirty minute tirade about how I shouldn't be relying on their promise or shouldn't take them at their word.  I didn't.  That's why it's in writing.  That's why we have left the case open.  It's just truly that a third party wouldn't have the authority to give us anything more than what we are seeking.


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