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Waiting for someone to call back ... and I'm like call me already!!  WTF.

Wishing I hadn't forgotten to take IBS med earlier today.

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On 12/2/2013 at 6:24 AM, IndieVisible said:

Hey we are people not robots, most of us our feelings and emotions and state of mind changes by the minute! Sure we have a how do you feel today, but is that a fair question? How can you answer that as the day has not ended yet and as soon as you posted you might feel different the next minute. Well here you go an opportunity to sound off when ever you want as often as you want because our feelings change through out the day! So feel free to post how you feel at this moment and come back if it changes! Come on my roller coaster ride! Let me start..

 

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I feel a bit anxious at this moment, have a T appointment in a few hours.

Guilty,sleepy, fat ? #foodaddiction #bulimic

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So absolutely drained. Up all night with my terrier, who has congestive heart failure. Really wasn't sure he'd make it through today. An injection of lasix (diuretic) helped him immensely. Hopefully we can both sleep tonight.

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I'm feeling really nervous. Seeing a new doctor today. Really hoping he's the one. I'm tired of seeing useless one's who just shove me out the door as quick as they can or seem amazing at my first visit but then terrible at my follow up.

Also have a bit of an upset tummy. Could be worse so trying to remain positive that it won't get worse before I have to go out.

2 hours ago, Rabbit37 said:

So absolutely drained. Up all night with my terrier, who has congestive heart failure. Really wasn't sure he'd make it through today. An injection of lasix (diuretic) helped him immensely. Hopefully we can both sleep tonight.

I'm sorry, it's hard when our fur babies are old or ill. I've nursed a few. I hope you both get some sleep.

 

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Feeling better than last night.

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Rattled.


New doctor was good, I think, although not at all what I expected. Not in a bad way. Just different. I don't like my odds of him continuing to allow my once every 18 month script of xanax........and he made me feel like an idiot (in a good way I think) by challenging some of my anxious thoughts (I knew they were silly some of them but whoa, saying them out loud to someone is a whole other story!).

I feel kind of anxious though. Because he made it seem like even though I've been this way as long as I can remember, that there's hope I will be able to get beyond the anxiety. And that is terrifying. I don't know if I want to get better. I mean I do, but at the same time the thought of not having my anxiety is frightening. I don't know how to be a me without it.

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Just want the day to start.  Look forward to it, but there is so much to do it is actually kind of overwhelming.  Mood is ok.

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Torn.  I haven't worked much today and part of me feels like I need to do more.  The other part of me sees that it's 8pm and thinks I should just do nothing and call today a wash. 

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10 minutes ago, dancesintherain said:

Torn.  I haven't worked much today and part of me feels like I need to do more.  The other part of me sees that it's 8pm and thinks I should just do nothing and call today a wash. 

I guess it depends on whether you are a morning person or a night owl. I'm a night owl so my "work" day begins in the evening and ends around 2 am. During the day, I'm either too anxious or my brain is mush to do anything except maybe troll the internet.

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good point.  In general I'm a night owl and now would be a much better time for me.  This particular day, I think it might just be more of a wash in general for some unknown reason.  I've already lost another hour and I don't think I'd be able to do much.  I did work close to ten hours yesterday, so perhaps I've got some sort of too much work the day prior hangover! 

I also do much better working in spurts.  Two hours solid and then a one hour nap and then another three hours and then an hour on the computer and then a few more.  I've been able to do that with my current reduced hours and flexible "working from home if possible" arrangement.  It'll be hard when I don't qualify for that anymore because I physically and mental health-wise benefit from it pretty significantly. 

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I'm reposting this here because this is where it was meant to go. I'm so beside myself about it I didn't even put it in the right place!

Unable to go and get my script filled because of the fear of starting new meds. The rational side of my brain knows this is ridiculous, but the other part can't make myself get there and get it done. Anxiety has been pretty bad in general today.
 

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Have a tension headache, but I am not tired enough to sleep it off with a muscle relaxer.

Slightly anxious but not sure why.  Need to get into the bath.

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I am so sleepy. I am dozing off.

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My feet feel cramped up.  Just gave them a massage :)

Otherwise a tad bit irritable, probably because of the people upstairs and that I have a headache.

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