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1 hour ago, CeremonyNewOrder said:

Exhausted...With it getting dark so early I want to go to sleep by 8.

Ditto this except for me I want to go to sleep around 6pm or directly after dinner!  

I live in a part of the US where there are four rather distinct seasons.  I am grateful for this.  I think you appreciate the pleasant weather more when you are forced to experience extended time without it.  

The way the seasons change brings a lot of color to my world.   Every season has its hallmark perks.  Summer is pool days and going to the beach and sunny days.  Fall is pumpkin spice everything, return of fall colors/foliage, nights where you can sleep with the windows open, the anticipation of the holidays.  Winter is crisp and white and makes sitting in front of a blazing fire with a mug of cocoa look ideal.  Winter is celebrating the first real snowfall, sledding, snowball fights, snowmen, Christmas and the dawn of the New Year.  Spring is something you are probably waiting for since before February.  It's amazing to watch what is dead and barren start to grow and bud and produce light colored green leaves.  Daffodils, Easter, warmer days, longer days, the excitement for summer's return.  I would not trade any of it for a climate where there is only one season.  

 

 

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The weather has made me have cabin fever.  Nobody could get out and I could not get out either.  I don't have much to eat in the house but I do have my vegetable salad and some eggs and cheese.  I think thats plenty.  

My right tonsil hurts from snoring so hard last night.  I knocked myself out with a dose of NyQuil and a little Benadryl.  I was not sleeping well and having lots of anxiety and restlessness during the nights so i thought I should self-medicate.  It worked.  

 

 

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5 minutes ago, dancesintherain said:

incredibly incredibly sad

I'm sorry. Me too.

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I found a leftover half of a sandwich in my outside refrigerator.  I guess I'm not going hungry. 

I wish I could have gotten out today though.  Tonight will be boring.

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Irritated. I actually got up the nerve to post a review on Yelp about a horrible client service experience. (I NEVER post on Yelp) but I thought it would help me "let off some steam"

I crafted the perfect post, and then Yelp apparently has a new algorythm where they decide to only publicly show certain "Recommended Reviews" and so my review doesn't even show up on the site!!!! Only if I log into my profile. Bizarre. I never got notification that I broke any posting rules - maybe it's because I only have 1 other review on my profile?? I don't get it. Grrrrrr.

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Wired and not tired. Waiting for night meds to kick in.

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This is an entirely new level of exhaustion for me.

I got up at 7am and had breakfast with my dad and then he dropped me off at the gym where I did aquatics classes from 8:30 until 10.  

From there I went directly to the mall and surrounding area, shopping form store to store and amassing even more exercise as I walked up and down aisles and through parking lots.  

I plunked down for lunch at around 12:15 and had a grilled chicken salad and cup of black beans.  

Then we were homeward bound.  I am now in my bed and want nothing more than to sleep for like 10 hours uninterrupted.  My period is due in two days.  I am feeling wonky and tired,  

My wonderful cat is laying on my achy back as I type this on my laptop in bed.  Ah, warm furry creatures.  It feels nice.  

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super tired (as I should be since I've been stuck awake since 4:30am), but unable to take a nap/fall asleep.  a frustrating predicament.

 

EDITED TO ADD - scratch that.  laid down after writing and fell asleep for about an hour.

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I am feeling slightly annoyed that someone else came into work so early. I usually am the only one here for a while. So I got to be careful when browsing the boards while working.

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I ate too much lo mein and now I am feeling the ill effects of it.  Diarrhea and I even threw up a little.  I feel somewhat awful.  I just can't eat the way I used to.  My body can't handle it. I need rest.

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