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I sooo sympathize with lack of sleep. I never know from one night to the next how it’ll be.

anyway, feeling exhausted but relieved tonight, got through hurdle no. 1 with late husband’s affairs. 

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Totally tired and exhausted because I've grown a tolerance to adderall and my pdoc is unable to put me on a new stimulation until next week because of all the damn regulations.  

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On 3/7/2018 at 1:33 AM, CeremonyNewOrder said:

Totally tired and exhausted because I've grown a tolerance to adderall and my pdoc is unable to put me on a new stimulation until next week because of all the damn regulations.  

Ugh that sucks. Yeah I wish there was a way to avoid tolerance. How long did it take until it built up for you? did you just keep raising your dose? what will you try next?

I am experience some issues too. Taking a break of 4-5 days and reinstating helps, but the days I don't take anything are extremely difficult - I just can't function or get anything done, and feel apathetic if I don't take it.

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38 minutes ago, Blahblah said:

Ugh that sucks. Yeah I wish there was a way to avoid tolerance. How long did it take until it built up for you? did you just keep raising your dose? what will you try next?

I am experience some issues too. Taking a break of 4-5 days and reinstating helps, but the days I don't take anything are extremely difficult - I just can't function or get anything done, and feel apathetic if I don't take it.

I think I've been on adderall at 60mg for about one year to one year in a half maybe. My pdoc said at our next session he might consider giving me dexedrine, which I guess is stronger but he wants me to take breaks and not take it on days where I don't have to be fully functional. We tried ritalin and provigiil in the past but they didn't work for me. 

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36 minutes ago, Blahblah said:

Ugh that sucks. Yeah I wish there was a way to avoid tolerance. How long did it take until it built up for you? did you just keep raising your dose? what will you try next?

I am experience some issues too. Taking a break of 4-5 days and reinstating helps, but the days I don't take anything are extremely difficult - I just can't function or get anything done, and feel apathetic if I don't take it.

I've been taking Ritalin for years and I still have not built up a tolerance. I occasionally take a break, but when I do I realize just how much it is still helping me. I become so absent-minded that I am almost a danger on the road when driving. It's always been a crap shoot whether it would wake me up or put me to sleep. (Yes, occasionally Ritalin makes me sleepy.) But it always helps me to think more clearly and not be so absent-minded.

I am feeling exhausted from broken sleep and worried about a loved one who has the flu and a high temperature .

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Exhausted from a very busy weekend. Why can’t there be a hidden day, not on the calendar, between Sunday night and Monday? 

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really sleepy, but warm and cozy too. my best friend is coming to visit me after she's done work tomorrow. i haven't seen her since christmas. i'm excited!

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Anxious      I need to attempt to give positive feedback to someone at work.   I am actually really pissed at them.  I hate confrontation.

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I’m failing miserably at handling Monday. I’ve managed two naps so far, stumbled around the house a bit, made it halfway through town til I bailed on my errand and came home. And it’s snowing. My joints are protesting. This is beyond fucked. 

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anxious.  work-related mostly.  also to some degree the fact that I have a support group meeting tonight and it's still a new-ish thing, so that makes me anxious.

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Disgusted. Worried. Worried. Worried.

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