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Exhausted. Yesterday was a bad day, today is less so, but kind of the draining fallout from it. I’m just tired, in so many ways. 

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Work is crushing and horrible but it’s bouncing off me. I laugh at the chaos and disorder.

added trazodone, able to hit 7 or 8 hrs of unbroken sleep.

head is clear. Feeling fine. Therapist will be pleased with the sleep.

not sure why I’m suspicious why I’m doing better as sleep = stability. 

Weird but I’ll take this kind of weird.

 

 

 

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Feeling ok. Glad to have gotten a new keyboard so that I can actually post. I'm also glad to be home.

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Stressed to the max. Got a fucking collection notice from the hospital I got examined at in my last accident, before this one. The other side claimed fault. But refused to pay med bill. Of 8500.00!!! She told me not to worry, that if she didn’t pay it, they’d just bill my Medicare. WRONG! Was just starting to see some pretty good improvement in my credit score too. How the fuck am I supposed to pay for this shit and now that it’s in collections my insurance isn’t ABLE to be billed!

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8 minutes ago, DammitJanet said:

Stressed to the max. Got a fucking collection notice from the hospital I got examined at in my last accident, before this one. The other side claimed fault. But refused to pay med bill. Of 8500.00!!! She told me not to worry, that if she didn’t pay it, they’d just bill my Medicare. WRONG! Was just starting to see some pretty good improvement in my credit score too. How the fuck am I supposed to pay for this shit and now that it’s in collections my insurance isn’t ABLE to be billed!

sorry, that sounds awful.  did you have insurance at the time of the last accident?  if so, they should be taking over the situation, including helping get a lawyer if it's what is needed to get the bills paid.  Maybe checking with them on Monday would be an option?

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Just now, dancesintherain said:

sorry, that sounds awful.  did you have insurance at the time of the last accident?  if so, they should be taking over the situation, including helping get a lawyer if it's what is needed to get the bills paid.  Maybe checking with them on Monday would be an option?

Yes I had/have insurance. But the other party claimed fault. Even gave me the 600 bucks to fix my car. So it seems they should have to be held accountable, especially after they promised me my Medicare would take care of it. I will call my insurance first thing Monday morning. Thanks for the advice, I didn’t know what to do!

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Right....your insurance should take care of getting the money out of the people who claimed fault.  If things go as they should, your insurance won't get stuck with a bill of any sort. 

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On a different note...I'm doing a lot better now than I was earlier today.  Brief whine.  I couldn't fall asleep until midnight last night and only got four hours of sleep (I woke up at 6:30, but I'd spent about 2 hours awake during the night).  I woke up with nausea, which was strange and I couldn't figure out where it was coming from.  Then the nasty headache started and it made sense--migraine.  I waited it out for a little bit, but when my vision started getting blurry I decided it was time to take some action and took a treximet and some zofran.  Fortunately, that took it away.  It was gone within four hours of starting (two hours of the meds), so it didn't last long, but it was miserable.

Then I went out to brunch with my parents, who were in town...and when I got back, I crashed.  I slept another two hours (hallelujah) and now feel reasonably coherent.  A friend's picking me up to chill for the weekend.  I'm feeling relatively calm and much better than I started the day.

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1 hour ago, dancesintherain said:

Right....your insurance should take care of getting the money out of the people who claimed fault.  If things go as they should, your insurance won't get stuck with a bill of any sort. 

No no no my insurance doesn’t have medical coverage for me, so it’s only going to be me with this incredibly ridiculous bill or the other party. And the other party was deemed the responsible party from their end and my insurance also said I. Was not at fault. The thing that is scaring me to death  is that the bill is no longer at the hospital, it’s been sold to a collection agency! They won’t take my Medicare they don’t deal with medical insurance, only cash. I’m terrified. But I’m hoping on Monday when I call my auto insurance they’ll be able to talk to the liables insurance to get them to pay it. Is this something an attorney would help me with if all else fails? I mean the other party adjuster promised me my Medicare would take care of it, she lied, and they claimed fault. So scared. 

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Tired. I hate night time. It is one giant nightmare.

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Sad, lonely, isolated. I've been more social lately, but noticed that I get jealous of other people having friends. It is like I want to keep the few people I know all to myself. Stupid, but true. I feel isolation in a way because I feel like no one understands how I feel. I get easily attached to someone if they show me kindness. I'm like a dog who will be faithful to the first person who pets me. Ah, ramble...I'm tired.

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22 hours ago, dancesintherain said:

Right....your insurance should take care of getting the money out of the people who claimed fault.  If things go as they should, your insurance won't get stuck with a bill of any sort. 

My insurance won’t pay the medical bill cause I have no medical through them. 

Im screwed. Oh well who cares anymore. 

 

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Next idea (sorry if this is annoying) is to get a personal injury attorney if it's within the statute of limitations (usually 2-3 years).  they'll usually do a free consult, so you wouldn't be out anything if the answer is no. 

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Tired, sleepy. I just gotta get through the next few hours 

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Horrible last year’s holiday memories + being very triggery = very bad dreams/nightmares lately that my brain won’t let me forget. Tired in so many ways. 

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Frustrated.  My pdoc said I was seeming more alive when i last saw her on Friday and attributed it to dropping the zyprexa and getting 8 hours of sleep instead of 9.5-10 hours of sleep.  That was a good thing. 

Now, I've gotten three straight nights of crappy sleep and I'm dead on my feet.  Why can't the good days last?

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i've got some pre-anxiety about a meeting with a program adviser in an hour. it shouldn't be a big deal, but meetings always give me the quakes.

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