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A bit wiped out. Woke with a massive 2am headache. It’s gone now, but not a good way to start the day. 

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14 hours ago, Lapis said:

Devastated. Hopeless.

I was just formally diagnosed with Diabetes Type 2. I had some blood testing done the other day and this was the result of that blood test along with several before that (combined results of blood sugar levels/A1C %)

I'm... I don't know. I'm scared.

I'm so sorry about the diagnosis....My heart goes out to you.

I would really like to know who posted a laughing emoji on your post.....That's horrible someone here would do that.

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22 minutes ago, CrazyRedhead said:

I would really like to know who posted a laughing emoji on your post.....That's horrible someone here would do that.

I would like to know that too. If we find out, we will take action. That's just plain hurtful. Aren't we all suffering enough without adding to it?

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Feeling pretty good! Slept completely through the night for 2 nights in a row! Am actually getting some important things done, too. Appetite seems lower since starting Lexapro 5mg too and I’m now down 7 lbs! 

Still having twinges of depression but the best two days in a good while. ?

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Really grouchy. I don't know if it's the beginning of the mixed stuff coming back or just a random mood, cause I can't tell anymore, which makes me grouchier.

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3 hours ago, CrazyRedhead said:

I'm so sorry about the diagnosis....My heart goes out to you.

I would really like to know who posted a laughing emoji on your post.....That's horrible someone here would do that.

 

3 hours ago, jt07 said:

I would like to know that too. If we find out, we will take action. That's just plain hurtful. Aren't we all suffering enough without adding to it?

 

Thank you. Someone has been posting those laughing emojis on a few of my posts where I post something along the lines of me suffering. Like where I posted I was annoyed about something recently... BAM... laughing emoji. I got one where I posted I could no longer binge watch television shows because I don't have the energy or concentration these days too.

I'm feeling a little better today after having slept all night. But I still feel like it's unreal. I know it's partially my fault for not eating better or trying to lose weight over the past few years. That and a combination of taking various anti-psychotics with diabetes/elevated blood glucose as a side effect. I'm terrified to treat my symptoms with any anti-psychotic right now because of that. I don't want the Diabetes to get worse. I just started Metformin yesterday to hopefully help. I'll have another blood test in 4 months. 

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9 minutes ago, Lapis said:

Thank you. Someone has been posting those laughing emojis on a few of my posts where I post something along the lines of me suffering. Like where I posted I was annoyed about something recently... BAM... laughing emoji. I got one where I posted I could no longer binge watch television shows because I don't have the energy or concentration these days too.

I'm feeling a little better today after having slept all night. But I still feel like it's unreal. I know it's partially my fault for not eating better or trying to lose weight over the past few years. That and a combination of taking various anti-psychotics with diabetes/elevated blood glucose as a side effect. I'm terrified to treat my symptoms with any anti-psychotic right now because of that. I don't want the Diabetes to get worse. I just started Metformin yesterday to hopefully help. I'll have another blood test in 4 months. 

Fuck them. They're will be plenty of people here that will want to offer you advice and support so take no notice of the one arsehole that feels the need to try and hurt you. I've had a lot of help from this forum weather it be a place to have a rant or even just reading random posts have provided me with information. As for the diabetes hopeful with diet and meds it can be kept under control. x

 

 

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Got amazing amounts of stuff done the past couple of days! My mood has picked up through the day today too! Yay for sleep!

@Lapis Try not let it get to you. It’s very rare that a poop comes along here...so stick around for a lot of very caring, supportive, empathetic folks that love to help. 

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I am sweltering and have a headache due to the weather being hot and humid. I feel good though because I reached a decision to move out of this steam bath to a climate more tolerable to me. 

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8 hours ago, jt07 said:

I am sweltering and have a headache due to the weather being hot and humid. I feel good though because I reached a decision to move out of this steam bath to a climate more tolerable to me. 

Good to hear that, jt (about the moving).

gorgeous sunshiny morning, got out and enjoyed a walk. Storms this afternoon, with a front passing through. 

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I’m feeling abandoned. ?

i was feeling ok...then it hit me hard. 

Motivation gone... and I was planning on doing a bunch of housework today. Meh. 

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Full moon here in Melbourne Australia. After a very long day.

 

Stab, stab, stab.

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feeling sort of ok.

sleep has been erratic. I should be "up" but i'm not at all. weird, i guess that's incident 2 of this actually working.

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5 hours ago, DammitJanet said:

I’m feeling abandoned. ?

i was feeling ok...then it hit me hard. 

Motivation gone... and I was planning on doing a bunch of housework today. Meh. 

I'm so sorry you are not feeling well......

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23 hours ago, jt07 said:

I feel good though because I reached a decision to move out of this steam bath to a climate more tolerable to me. 

I am deflated from yesterday because I found out the place I was planning to move to has a high crime rate. Just sick about it because it is the only place in the US which has a climate tolerable to me. So I'm back to being depressed.

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feeling sad. And generally like a let down to everyone

 

my listening skills suck

my patience sucks

younger of 2 parrots bit a skin blemish y'day, it hurt and i jumped, launching him half way across the room

i never achieve anything

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Nervous. Since just restarting klonopin, the first couple of days I felt great...got lots done... but last time I took it sevenish years ago, I ended up severely depressed on it to the point of almost succeeding an OD. But yesterday and today, I’m feeling less motivated, and just generally more down. 

Crossing fingers this passes soon. 

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15 minutes ago, DammitJanet said:

Nervous. Since just restarting klonopin, the first couple of days I felt great...got lots done... but last time I took it sevenish years ago, I ended up severely depressed on it to the point of almost succeeding an OD. But yesterday and today, I’m feeling less motivated, and just generally more down. 

Crossing fingers this passes soon. 

Crossing my fingers and toes that this passes soon for you!

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1 minute ago, Wonderful.Cheese said:

Crossing my fingers and toes that this passes soon for you!

Awww thanks cheese. ?

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1 hour ago, DammitJanet said:

Nervous. Since just restarting klonopin, the first couple of days I felt great...got lots done... but last time I took it sevenish years ago, I ended up severely depressed on it to the point of almost succeeding an OD. But yesterday and today, I’m feeling less motivated, and just generally more down. 

Crossing fingers this passes soon. 

I hope it passes, too......!!

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