Jump to content
CrazyBoards.org

IndieVisible

How Do You Feel THIS MOMENT in Time?

Recommended Posts

14 hours ago, Unstrung Harp said:

Emotionally precarious.

Feeling the same (mentally & emotionally), albeit physically well rested 😞 Why won't my brain just surrender already?

It continues to drag me in obsessive circles and minefields.

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites

Miserable with allergies, even with xyxal. I’ve tried many many AH’s and a lot either aren’t strong enough, or make me too sleepy, or totally mess with my mood. 

Took abby to the park this morning at 8 am. Took everything in me to shower then drive rush hour traffic just so we could get our exercise before it got up to 70° much less 86°! 

Went to bed at freakin 8:00 last night cause I keep waking at 3-4 and with just one night of bad sleep I’m a huge mess! So I finally feel rested after sleeping til five! 😲 

Enough ramblings. Feel pretty ok today but still lacking the motivation to get the house in order like I had last week. 

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites
41 minutes ago, DammitJanet said:

Miserable with allergies, even with xyxal. I’ve tried many many AH’s and a lot either aren’t strong enough, or make me too sleepy, or totally mess with my mood. 

Took abby to the park this morning at 8 am. Took everything in me to shower then drive rush hour traffic just so we could get our exercise before it got up to 70° much less 86°! 

Went to bed at freakin 8:00 last night cause I keep waking at 3-4 and with just one night of bad sleep I’m a huge mess! So I finally feel rested after sleeping til five! 😲 

Enough ramblings. Feel pretty ok today but still lacking the motivation to get the house in order like I had last week.  

Generic Flonase? Or do steroids  mess with your mood?

I take the 24hr zyrtec twice a day for anticonvulsant related minor rashes. With all the pollen this year, it doesn't cover alot of the sinus/eye/nose issues. I started taking some generic flonase, and its helped massively.

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites

flonase is helping me also.  and zaditor for eyes. 

have you tried the prescription clarinex?  (different from OTC claritin)

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites
Posted (edited)
38 minutes ago, argh said:

Generic Flonase? Or do steroids  mess with your mood?

I take the 24hr zyrtec twice a day for anticonvulsant related minor rashes. With all the pollen this year, it doesn't cover alot of the sinus/eye/nose issues. I started taking some generic flonase, and its helped massively.

Yeah, unfortunately no...me+steroids =bitch. 

Ive pretty much tried them all. 😐

Edited by DammitJanet

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites

Strangely calm and focused. All it took was yoga +coffee+adderall +xanax +more coffee and slightly more adderall. Wonder how long this will last.

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites
41 minutes ago, DammitJanet said:

Yeah, unfortunately no...me+steroids =bitch. 

Ive pretty much tried them all. 😐

How about a first gen antihistamine? Despite some...aggressive objections from another member here, discounting my experience because other people find them equivalent..I have personally found them to be more effective at controlling allergies vs 2nd or 3rd generation. I just generally stay away from them as they screw up my mood and there's anticholinergic effects. Guessing they mess with your moods too?

What about Singulair (montelukast)?

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites
1 minute ago, argh said:

How about a first gen antihistamine? Despite some...aggressive objections from another member here, discounting my experience because other people find them equivalent..I have personally found them to be more effective at controlling allergies vs 2nd or 3rd generation. I just generally stay away from them as they screw up my mood and there's anticholinergic effects. Guessing they mess with your moods too?

What about Singulair (montelukast)?

Yes, have tried them all.  This has been a huge issue for 51 years. 

  • Sad 1

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites

Tired. Down. Life is so hard without one leg.

  • Sad 2

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites
8 minutes ago, jt07 said:

Tired. Down. Life is so hard without one leg.

i'm sorry, jt. it's so exhausting and defeating to have mobility issues, and pain only makes it worse.

it's very slow at work today. i've been having fear and doubt about whether i'm worth my wage. i feel like i know nothing of any worth. 

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites

Annoyed as fuck. I had to email the dept of revenue in my state, and I’ve been waiting on *some* kind of reply all day, only to just now discover the stupid email was still sitting in the outbox. I have no idea why it wouldn’t send; I re-sent it, now they say I’ll receive a reply within 72 hours. Patience is not my best quality. 

Mentally I guess I’m okay, just feel a bit agitated. 

  • Like 1

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites

Okay. Annoyed at some things that are understandable. Want to find a better job

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites

Hopeless! So I look up my last ditch antihistamine, xyxal, and see under side effects (less common but WHATEVER) suicidal thoughts and depression. 

Nothing’s going right! Goodnight!

  • Sad 1

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites

Feeling pretty crappy for the last 2 days or so. The emotional impact of having a broken leg and losing mobility is starting to set in. Also, I've been in a 2 day panic mode with trouble breathing and trouble sleeping. I'm already tired of living like this and I'm facing another seven weeks of it.

  • Sad 2

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites

That sounds really hard jt.  I hope for quick healing.

 

I'm more awake than I should be given the time that it is and still somewhat manic.  But for the psychosis and hospitalization piece, I think it's hypo.  I'm not sure it completely matters.  Whatever it is, it needs to go.  Fingers crossed, it seems like it's heading in the right direction.

  • Like 1

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites

having hot flashes.

i guess i'm not a fertile young woman, which makes sense as i'm a 30 something dude.

well then.

  • Haha 1

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites

Join the conversation

You can post now and register later. If you have an account, sign in now to post with your account.

Guest
Reply to this topic...

×   Pasted as rich text.   Paste as plain text instead

  Only 75 emoji are allowed.

×   Your link has been automatically embedded.   Display as a link instead

×   Your previous content has been restored.   Clear editor

×   You cannot paste images directly. Upload or insert images from URL.


  • Similar Content

    • By Angeni Mai
      Lately I've been finding myself believing that there are kangaroos and camels in the backyard but later recognize them as deer. It makes no sense because neither kangaroo nor camel are native to my country. 

      Additionally, I've been having issues with thinking I'm speaking with people and then when I ask them what we were just talking about, they either say we haven't talked about anything for a while or that we were talking about something completely unrelated to what I thought the conversation was. 

      Any ideas of what the Hell might be going on here? I've never had something like this happen persistently up until a few months ago but now it's really becoming a concern. I start seeing a new psychiatrist on the 15th of March, and will bring all of this up, but I kind of wonder if anyone can give me a glimmer of insight of what might be happening here. 
    • By sscott
      Some of my voices tell me their names, and they refer to each other by those names. But the names they use are those of people I have known. I think they intentionally do this as part of an ongoing attempt to induce me to make mistakes and incorrectly think they are humans. But why would an hallucination(s) have motives?
      Furthermore, they actually acknowledge that they do have motives. Often, their stated motive is to cause me to have what they call “a hang-over”, which is a term they use that describes the problems that occur in the real world after misattributing their identity. For example, if I am psychotic or stressed, or if I am reality checking for some reason, I might react to who they ‘say’ they are by posting something incriminating, embarrassing or defamatory on Facebook. But having motives is not the only surprising and inexplicable trait my voices have. They also plan things, they have meetings, and one of them runs a training school in which I am the subject that the students (other voices) use to practice cruelty towards.
      But what really does me in, is an implied association between my voices and my feelings, and I do not mean the feelings I get as a result of hearing certain things, and I do not mean emotions. I mean things like twitching, very increased heart rate, ‘hot flushes’, cramps etc. My voices repeatedly ask “did you feel that?”, as though they are checking whether something they have done has worked. I also occasionally have absolutely terrible feelings that I struggle to be able to describe, and my voices will start ‘saying’ that the shit feelings I am having are a punishment for something that I have recently done.
      But to suggest that my feelings are somehow causally related to my voices is to suggest that my voices have agency, which is absurd. So I am really keen to hear from other people if they suspect that their voices impact their feelings (not moods or emotions) in a determinate, causal way. By this I mean that the voices do something that causes or changes feelings, that is, do your voices ever actually perpetrate changes in your feelings?
    • By Unstrung Harp
      I have changed the name of my blog. My apologies about any potential copyright infringement committed upon other CB bloggers with turtle-themed blogs. The shared turtleness is mere coincidence. I was thinking about this:

      turtles all the way down

      This summer's lesson from the trenches: intense feelings will not kill you (provided you are properly medicated. Please ask your doctor about what he or she can do for you). They will not kill you. You may wish they would. You may feel like they might. But they will not actually kill you. They may drive you to distraction, bring tears and anxiety, make you feel like you are going crazy. And in many ways they are preferable to the alternative. Feeling is part of the human condition. It's good to have a lesson in that now and again. It is good to know that after 27 years as an adult, and many years of therapy, I have internalized a healthy message, which is: feelings will not kill you. Not even intense ones, or ones that feel wrong, or ones that are out of sync with other feelings. That is both comforting and frustrating, but, strangely for me, more comforting than anything else at the moment, even though I feel sort of terrible at the moment. Sometimes you're just going to go through some shit. And maybe going through some shit can be a reminder that you are alive, and have agency in the world, and choices. Good lessons.

      I am capable of learning.

      And it's nice to know that after all of these years together, pdoc/tdoc and I still have things to talk about.

      Yesterday I walked two miles, fueled by a combination of sleep deprivation, adderall, anger, worry and anxiety. But I walked two miles. Forward progression.
×
×
  • Create New...