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1 minute ago, DammitJanet said:

Totally unconstitutional. It better get to the SC and they better uphold the freakin law. 

I read one article that suggested maybe the SC won't take it on as a case, because they prefer to undermine Roe v. Wade incrementally as they have been so people don't riot rather than openly acknowledge what they think of the personhood of women. Because only a really small percentage of Americans are in favor of such a law or the overturning of Roe v. Wade. I gather Alabama was trying to make it a "clean," black and white case by claiming that a fetus has absolute rights no matter the circumstance. But they kind of put the SC in a bad position to have to go that far to overturn it. Still, this court just showed that they don't collectively respect settled precedent, so who knows what they'll do. I can't believe I came of age thinking that I had bodily autonomy and now we have to argue that point. Though Roe v. Wade was premised on privacy, not bodily autonomy. Anyway, yeah, Alabama can go fuck itself and take the religious Right with it. And also Amazon.

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feeling pretty good. i get to help with a garage door install at work today, which should be fun.

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19 hours ago, DammitJanet said:

Unbelievably infuriated. 🤬

I hope you feel better soon.

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Knock on wood (no guarantees), these laws will get challenged in the lower level federal courts and overturned.  At that point, we would be relying on the various court of appeals denying.  I also don’t see them making it all the way to SCOTUS.  I could be wrong, but they strike me as too blatantly unconstitutional.

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2 hours ago, dancesintherain said:

Knock on wood (no guarantees), these laws will get challenged in the lower level federal courts and overturned.  At that point, we would be relying on the various court of appeals denying.  I also don’t see them making it all the way to SCOTUS.  I could be wrong, but they strike me as too blatantly unconstitutional.

Thanks. I just may be able to sleep once more tonight. 

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Worried, unmotivated, can't focus. I'm also not wanting to go to therapy today. Blah...

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Irritability and anxiety getting worse.  Having a hard time working and i was really late getting here because i kept panicking and going back to the house to check doors.  Plus my head hurts.  

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Fire didn't last long, only about 3/4 of the day  Bit of a crash following it.

Feeling weird. Not up but above baseline. Don't need as much sleep as normal however.

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Anxious, very irritable for the past couple of hours, bored, frustrated cause I had a lot to do today and haven’t done anything but eat!

And as always just assume I’m flaming pissed at the Geriatric Obstructing P*ssygrabbers. 

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23 minutes ago, DammitJanet said:

Anxious, very irritable for the past couple of hours, bored, frustrated cause I had a lot to do today and haven’t done anything but eat!

And as always just assume I’m flaming pissed at the Geriatric Obstructing P*ssygrabbers. 

You at least sleep?

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9 minutes ago, argh said:

You at least sleep?

Yes, but not enough. 😐 not to be selfish or anything, but my mood is screwed with anything below 7 hours and this morning I woke at 4. So a little under 6 hour and I’m just on edge, snapping at Abby for stupid things like walking on my freakin heels! Argh! Taking Seroquel again tonight...she did prescribe zyprexa for a week to get over this, but no way, no can do. 

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43 minutes ago, DammitJanet said:

And as always just assume I’m flaming pissed at the Geriatric Obstructing P*ssygrabbers. 

This. Such a sh*tshow..

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Meh. Apathy. I just want to go lay back in bed. Can't seem to think of anything enjoyable to put on my to do list. Only work & chores. Nothing is enjoyable or rewarding at moment except sleeping.

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Frustrated at my current situation and life, lonely, down on myself for not doing anything really today. I'm just defective I guess. 

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Feeling like utter shit. 

Allergies aren’t going away this year from any med. Yep, I’ve tried them all. Had allergy shots that helped immensely several years ago....seems they’ve come back  can that even happen?

Trying to switch to Lexapro from Viibryd that does indeed help...HUGE. MISTAKE. Nope. Going back to Viibryd as of now. Was getting all kinds of work done, cannot even get my dishes done. 

I hope I can come back from this GD tailspin. 😢

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Finally! Slept 8.5 hours! Sill grouchy and racing thoughts and pressured speech and dying to go on a spending spree with my new credit card since it just got here yesterday!

also lost another lb that I’ve been working very hard on. 

So despite the grouchiness, some good things happened today. 

Also was cloudy and windy today to walk Abby, albeit still on the warm side but it was very pleasant til towards the end, yay!

feeling hopeful, relieved, grateful. 

Edit: I also switched back to the old AD regiment as clearly higher Lexapro was seemingly making my temper and motivation go down the drain! Unless that was temporary due to titration off the Viibryd. But if I’m not suicidal (typically), and was feeling quite motivated (though that could’ve been the small scale mania...actually don’t know the scale until someone tells me after the fact! 

But I'm definitely feeling more ok today. The sleep helps immensely!

pressured speech and racing thoughts and dying to spend money are still huge issues. So...for now, as much as I loathe the drug, I’ll continue the Seroquel. 😐

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Productive day, thanks to added ritalin and caffeine. Got some important stuff done, despite feeling a bit like a druggie.

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Slept 4+ hours to try to escape the day. But kept having nightmares that husband had cancer again. My worst fear. I don’t want to think about this anymore. That this can happen and is it a sign? I’m sick to my stomach.

Now I’ll go to bed in 3 hours, hopefully minus the nightmares. They are relatively new. :(

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