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I'm back to having sleeping sickness. I want to sleep all the time. I can fall off at the drop of a hat. I hate this. I don't feel well. I have no motivation for anything except sleep. I can't even watch YouTube videos without dozing off.

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10 hours ago, jt07 said:

I'm back to having sleeping sickness. I want to sleep all the time. I can fall off at the drop of a hat. I hate this. I don't feel well. I have no motivation for anything except sleep. I can't even watch YouTube videos without dozing off.

Sorry you’re feeling like crap again.

Have you ever considered trying out Vyvanse instead of Ritalin?

 

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I’m feeling really good this morning, as usual (most of the time)... I think I’ve figured out what’s going on at 1 every day. I’m pretty sure my Vyvanse is wearing off sooner than it’s supposed to and need an ir dose for that time. 

Everyday at 1 I become physically exhausted, moody, sensitive...I have another huge change I’ll be aiming for with her tomorrow though...and she won’t change more than one thing at a time...which would be stupid this time but oh well. 

Feeling very anxious about the appointment with her tomorrow, but otherwise enjoying my good mood this morning. 

I should add, I broke down and took Seroquel again for sleep, so I’m not thrilled with feeling famished again already. 

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5 hours ago, DammitJanet said:

I’m feeling really good this morning, as usual (most of the time)... I think I’ve figured out what’s going on at 1 every day. I’m pretty sure my Vyvanse is wearing off sooner than it’s supposed to and need an ir dose for that time. 

Everyday at 1 I become physically exhausted, moody, sensitive.

I've been getting the sudden tiredness around 3pm (this is after taking an extra IR dose of ritalin before lunch) Pretty sure I need to increase to 30mg extended, the IR sucks, seems to work maybe 1-2 hours tops, but then I get 5x more tired after the 1-2 hours is up, so why bother.

Tired, lonely and frustrated. I just want to lay in bed and do absolutely nothing.

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1 minute ago, Blahblah said:

I've been getting the sudden tiredness around 3pm (this is after taking an extra IR dose of ritalin before lunch) Pretty sure I need to increase to 30mg extended, the IR sucks, seems to work maybe 1-2 hours tops, but then I get 5x more tired after the 1-2 hours is up, so why bother.

Tired, lonely and frustrated. I just want to lay in bed and do absolutely nothing.

The vyvanse works very well for 8 hours...just like now though...one o’clock hits and I cannot do a thing but lay half comatose in my recliner. 🙄

And yes...talk about lonely. 

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13 hours ago, DammitJanet said:

Have you ever considered trying out Vyvanse instead of Ritalin?

Thanks, DJ. Yes, I'd like to give Vyyvanse a try, but I'm afraid to go in asking to change my stim. I am pretty sure that the root of my problem is not something to be solved by a stim.

I'm dong better today. Not great but better than yesterday.

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So tired and unmotivated, I don't want to do anything. No idea why. Slept for 9 hours last night. Feel physically drained.

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7 hours ago, jt07 said:

Thanks, DJ. Yes, I'd like to give Vyyvanse a try, but I'm afraid to go in asking to change my stim. I am pretty sure that the root of my problem is not something to be solved by a stim.

I'm dong better today. Not great but better than yesterday.

That’s too bad. It’s helped manage my depression much better than the others so I promote it when possible. 😂 

I’m glad you’re feeling a little better. Hope it lasts awhile. 

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Agitated and sad, and angry that I'm going to lose more hours of my life thinking about a fucked up person I still mysteriously care about and how he's treated me, because here it is again in my head in full force. Also I have to drive my daughter into the city soon for a concert, and I don't wanna, and I especially don't want to because I'm agitated and the drive stresses me out. 

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Getting tired and sleepy. I hope to do all my sleeping tonight so that I am fresh tomorrow.

17 hours ago, DammitJanet said:

That’s too bad. It’s helped manage my depression much better than the others so I promote it when possible. 😂 

I’m glad you’re feeling a little better. Hope it lasts awhile. 

Thanks, DJ. 

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Struggling...to do anything or leave the apartment. Gorgeous day out and I'm frozen inside ruminating about things, doing nothing, wasting the entire day. I guess all I can do is force myself to go outside...walk around aimlessly..but there isn't anything that I WANT to do, nothing that sounds enjoyable....Can anyone here relate to this?

Tdoc says motivation comes AFTER the action. I'm just so sick and tired of feeling sick and tired. Sitting inside alone avoiding everything is probably the worst thing I could do 😞 but I feel completely anhedonic.

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5 minutes ago, Blahblah said:

Struggling...to do anything or leave the apartment. Gorgeous day out and I'm frozen inside ruminating about things, doing nothing, wasting the entire day. I guess all I can do is force myself to go outside...walk around aimlessly..but there isn't anything that I WANT to do, nothing that sounds enjoyable....Can anyone here relate to this?

Tdoc says motivation comes AFTER the action. I'm just so sick and tired of feeling sick and tired. Sitting inside alone avoiding everything is probably the worst thing I could do 😞 but I feel completely anhedonic.

I can certainly relate......I feel this way pretty much every day........I struggle to even take a shower or get dressed....Most days I stay in my pajamas all day..........You are not alone.....

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4 hours ago, CrazyRedhead said:

I can certainly relate......I feel this way pretty much every day........I struggle to even take a shower or get dressed....Most days I stay in my pajamas all day..........You are not alone.....

Thanks @CrazyRedhead Glad I'm not the only one, I blame myself, because I know it's avoiding behavior and I get into a cycle. I actually went outside all day and just walked around. Visited some shops & places I had never been before. Weather was sunny and spectacular, many people out. I do feel better (not enough energy to go out again tonight) but I'm glad I made it out.

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Im not entirely sure. Im not up, down or mixed. But nor do i feel normal. Weird. 

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Only been up for 3 hours, was doing fine and now I'm already feeling sort of tired. WTH.

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Frustrated, and a mess. But thanks to being switched to xanax er I’m not in constant panic mode today. 

There has to be a medication that I can do without that’s causing the insomnia. 

Even with switching to the er xanax, I still woke at three. Hence, the frustration. 

I mean I even got counseled at the pharmacy cause I just got my regular IR xanax a couple weeks ago... and it came up in their watch system. 

Also, the Xanax er is totally negating my vyvanse. 

Total fog head, no motivation, screwed up cognition. 

I’m starting to have fleeting thoughts about suicide because of the completely unsolvable sleep problem. 

Though for now, up til today, still at least getting Abby walked for minimum of 3 miles. Well, still got her walk in today, but as of today I cannot do anything else!

Sigh. 

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5 minutes ago, DammitJanet said:

Frustrated, and a mess. But thanks to being switched to xanax er I’m not in constant panic mode today. 

There has to be a medication that I can do without that’s causing the insomnia. 

Even with switching to the er xanax, I still woke at three. Hence, the frustration. 

I mean I even got counseled at the pharmacy cause I just got my regular IR xanax a couple weeks ago... and it came up in their watch system. 

Also, the Xanax er is totally negating my vyvanse. 

Total fog head, no motivation, screwed up cognition. 

I’m starting to have fleeting thoughts about suicide because of the completely unsolvable sleep problem. 

Though for now, up til today, still at least getting Abby walked for minimum of 3 miles. Well, still got her walk in today, but as of today I cannot do anything else!

Sigh. 

Did the attempt to lower the Lamotrigine work out? Or one adjustment at a time?

something non stimulant like provigil for your adhd? It’s generic, so your new upcoming health plan probably wont be a complete bag of dicks.

can you go lower on your trazodone? For sleep, this might be a case of less is more? The therapeutic dose for as an antidepressant is from 300 to 600mg. If your sig is correct that might be ironically pushing you up into insomnia vs helping with sleep.

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Sleep has been horrible. Need to get ahead of it. Haven’t lost my shit yet, all things considered..so yay mood stabilizer i guess. Its a bit boring, but mood instability is only exciting like walking down a dark alley in a bad neighborhood, wearing an expensive watch would be.

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