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13 hours ago, jt07 said:

Not as bad as I could be, but not great. Today was my birthday, and I spent it alone, in bed with a broken leg, and sweltering. Just wonderful.

Belated happy birthday, jt. I’m sorry it wasn’t the best. I hope the year improves for you.

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Thanks, DJ and Harp, for the birthday wishes.

Feeling tired and anxious at the same time. Hot and sweltering. I just need a break from this heat.

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15 hours ago, CrazyRedhead said:

Your episode sounds like a bad anxiety/panic attack.......I've had these type attacks before.

Sounds like your SO is being a little controlling........Hopefully the Ativan might help.

If you feel comfortable sharing, why aren't you taking all your meds?

I think it was anxiety. I took the Ativan and 30 minutes later my heart beat went back to normal again.

I'm really scared that my meds are toxic or that they will cause unbearable side effects. It's really unreasonable for me to be thinking that way since I've been on these 2 meds off and on in the past and never had any issues with them. I was at the max dosages for both meds at one point even and was never afraid to take the pills. I'm at very small starting dosages now (or am supposed to be).

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I’m feeling pretty  awful because I woke up at a regular time and then took my night medications first. So I’ve got 15 mg of zyprexa in my system and 15 of klonopin and kind of a mess.

I’m having to speak by talk to text and I don’t know why I can’t  type regularly. That took 15 minutes to fix. 

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2 minutes ago, dancesintherain said:

I’m feeling pretty  awful because I woke up at a regular time and then took my night medications first. So I’ve got 15 mg of zyprexa in my system and 15 of klonopin and kind of a mess.

I’m having to speak by talk to text and I don’t know why I can’t  type regularly. That took 15 minutes to fix. 

Omg I’ve done that once...accidentally taken my night meds when I wake instead of morning meds...AWFUL. Tried to puke them up for over a half an hour with no luck. I feel for you. 

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Okay. It’s always okay for the first half of the day, then the loneliness hits. 

Walked abby for 4 miles this morning which isn’t often but finally got eight hours of sleep! So I realized that is when I actually get energy from exercise...after pushing myself to go as far as possible and fast as possible vs just doing a mile or two. 

I used my new credit card again today which is very bad, but everything I got was kinda really needed. Well, sort of. I can’t afford cc bills every month so I need to stop!

like, yesterday. 

Feeling accomplished, but anxious about my spending and running up cards. 

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Annoyed. 3 am f*cking sucks. Always 3 am!

And accomplished since I still walked Abby at 545 for an hour. 

Go. Me.

Update: temporarily thrilled!

was running out of dog food, and since I cancelled my membership at Costco I was stressing out cause they had a phenomenal price for top grade grain free food and wasn’t sure how I’d afford anything similar and I won’t let her eat junk...how’s that for a run-on sentence?!

Went to amazon, and they had taste of the wild (very good food) with a 50% off coupon if I subscribed!

so a 52 buck bag of food for 26 bucks! (Of course I’ll cancel after this order and just re-up membership at Costco in six months when she runs out-no WAY I’m paying 52 bucks for 30 lbs of food!)...muahahaha was done on my new credit card yet again though...so I’m gonna have to pay that thing off asap with the extremely high apr. lalalalaaaa happy for now. 😃

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23 minutes ago, DammitJanet said:

Annoyed. 3 am f*cking sucks. Always 3 am!

And accomplished since I still walked Abby at 545 for an hour. 

Go. Me. 🙄

oh no! that's really sh*t. Do you feel exhausted by the afternoon? I would if I kept waking up at 3-4am. Grrrr, Good for you on the walk tho!

Doing OK today, but feeling pressured and stressed.

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8 minutes ago, Blahblah said:

oh no! that's really sh*t. Do you feel exhausted by the afternoon? I would if I kept waking up at 3-4am. Grrrr, Good for you on the walk tho!

Doing OK today, but feeling pressured and stressed.

Totally wiped out by 12-1 pm. The only way I get enough sleep is if I take 4 different medications plus ashwaganda. Thanks for the support. 💗

 

 

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1 hour ago, DammitJanet said:

Annoyed. 3 am f*cking sucks. Always 3 am!

Sorry you woke up this early........Glad you got a good deal on Abby's food, though.

1 hour ago, DammitJanet said:

lalalalaaaa happy for now. 😃

That's great.....Glad you're feeling good today....!!

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Sleep still evades, but better 4 instead of three. 

See sleep specialist in an hour which will be for nothing...yet again...

but... no headache for four days now, and no banging so far today. Yay!

Feeling anxious and annoyed (mostly cause I’ll have to deal with rush hour traffic after) I have to see this freakin specialist (per pdoc) who will likely do nothing. Again. Says I’m already on enough to put down a horse. 🙄

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Satisfied, because I’m getting work done in the studio, but it’s hot and muggy, and the supposed thunderstorms forecast all day still haven’t materialized, and it’s making me cranky.

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A bit reassured.  I thought a particular mock case that my group of people we are working on was fairly straightforward and we haven’t had any straightforward cases yet.  Talked to someone and he had the same reaction.  So it’s possible that both of us are missing something, but it could also be that they just wanted to give us something straightforward.

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41 minutes ago, Blahblah said:

Tired. Eyes parched & dehydrated, time to rest them...

I know you live in another country, can you buy visine there? They have a cooling formula, my daughter swears it’s like being maced with peppermint, but it only stings for a moment, then pure relief. 

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