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At this very moment, I feel okay, but overall, my head is just kinda spinning. I’m working working working, but not finishing anything, and these next few weeks are filled with all kinds of non-routine days that are making my head pre-emptively explode. 

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Chubby. My belly looks like Buddha. 

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Frustrated.  I completed a big task and at my old job it would be okay for me to leave 45 min early if there wasn’t an obvious next step.  Unfortunately I can’t here, so I’m going to have to do busy work.

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Headache, hot and antsy. Time for iced coffee and getting out, going somewhere....

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Extremely stressed. My move is on Monday, but I cannot move anything to the hotel until the packing by the movers here are done. I can only fit so much in my car for a 3 month stay...definitely not everything. So I’m pretty sure I’m gonna goof and let them pack something I need everyday because those things can’t be packed until right before they get here. And like I said it’s not gonna all fit in my car. FML. 

Excited about something else though...I’ve been on the section eight housing voucher list for almost two years and I’m suddenly only number 500ish and just two months ago I was over 800! I’ll finally get out of this hell hole. 

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God dammit what have I been doing?! Panicking , that’s what!

Movers will be here Monday to pack...to move to a hotel for 3 months...and I’m supposed to be starting the packing, especially the stuff going with me to hotel...well, I use the stuff I’m taking to the hotel everyday so how can I pack it until the last minute??

Stomach is a mess, had to take Xanax, which ofc lowers my motivation!

I was planning on at least getting dusting done and paperwork filed through/shredded...NOPE. 

So much stuff I’ve no idea...well I can pick up a bunch of papers to sort through, but that feels like too much!

FML. 

Stressed, overwhelmed and beyond anxiety I have felt in years. 

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I guess I feel pretty good.  Very hyper, over animated.  But I am trying to get some structure back. Sometimes that helps.    Eating was not good.  Need to work on it. Somehow I forget. 

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Sometimes I wish I could be mean. But, it’s not me. Instead I am weak and fragile. 

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8 minutes ago, KnickNak said:

Sometimes I wish I could be mean. But, it’s not me. Instead I am weak and fragile. 

Or you're kind and empathetic and not a fucking prick. Being mean is often based on insecurity and weakness - people need to crap on others to make themselves feel superior because they're insecure at heart.

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Dog tired. Can’t remember what movie that was from. Something with Tom Hanks I think. It’s just been a long fucking week. In less than two hours I’ll be in bed. Focusing on that. 

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55 minutes ago, Fluent In Silence said:

Or you're kind and empathetic and not a fucking prick. Being mean is often based on insecurity and weakness - people need to crap on others to make themselves feel superior because they're insecure at heart.

Yes lol I am that too. You’re right, pricks are buttheads. And it’s true, usually mean people have their own issues. I just feel like if I am mean it means I am sticking up for myself. But, I am sure there are other ways to stick up for myself. 😀

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So incredibly sad. @jt07 I’m in utter shock still. Miss you so much. 💗 I’m so glad you’re finally feeling peace though. 

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18 hours ago, Rabbit37 said:

Dog tired. Can’t remember what movie that was from. Something with Tom Hanks I think.

Yes, you're right....It was a movie with Tom Hanks called "The Green MIle", based on a novel of the same name by Stephen King........IMO, both movie and novel were excellent.

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16 minutes ago, CrazyRedhead said:

Yes, you're right....It was a movie with Tom Hanks called "The Green MIle", based on a novel of the same name by Stephen King........IMO, both movie and novel were excellent.

Thank you! That was driving me nuts. 

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