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Peanut butter & crackers for dinner. Started Keto diet 3 days ago to see if it helps for mood (nearly no carbs, more fat & protein) but already a fail. I grew up being told that fat was the devil and daily bacon & eggs = bad cholesterol or heart attacks. So everything was zero-fat, low calorie.

How the Hell can anyone sustain UNDER 30 grams of Carbs per day? An Apple alone has 7 grams of carbs! 1 Banana has 27 Carbs. And 80-120 grams of FAT was recommended per day. Ewwww. I imagine someone just swallowing entire cubes of Butter (grass fed, of course) 3 times per day, with coconut oil in their coffee, entire avocado on the side.... @mikl_pls Are you still trying to stick to Keto? 😵

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Anxious. Anxious about IOP. Anxious about whether Pdoc will agree to increase the Lamictal or whether it's too soon with the depakote. Anxious about what it will be like for me if these meds don't kick in soon.

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My TMJ is acting up, and I have a sore throat.

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have felt crappy all day, but i have therapy in a couple hours and i found some cotton candy in my bag leftover from a carnival i went to on the weekend, so i think things are looking up.

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So. Fucking. Tired. I want August to be over with, constant stuff going on. I want quiet routine, I want solitude for a few hours every day.

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Been listening to a lot of music tonight and have been getting a lot of messages for some reason again. Scary. Yet some are amusing. 

Plus ashamed of past behavior and thoughts. I have been such an awful human being. Still am I guess. I'm not down about this, just ashamed like I want to stick my head in the sand. Sure you can chalk part of it up to MI's, but not all.

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Anxious.  Very anxious,  have a dermatology appointment where I’ll have to reveal an area that’s a trauma trigger for me.

 

and sorry to hear so many others are feeling like crap right now.  You’re worth the fight.

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Overloaded. Annihilated. JFC.

Had to do my 4 hour round trip today for neurologist which turned into 8...right in the middle of driving this long stretch my ac suddenly cut off as well as cruise control, and smoke started coming through ac vents...car suddenly wouldn’t go over 65 mph where everyone else was going 80...please, please just let me get to the appointment. Car started cooling down as soon as ac went out. 

Did my appointment then called the nearest, best rated mechanic, told me I had 2 oil leaks...I also knew it’d been too long since filling coolant and changing oil so I told him that’s all I could afford. I guess a few spark plugs were drowning in oil...🥵😦😯 so he wiped them out completely and I drove home...but as I approached home, what happens? HUGE storm...hail, wind, lightning, thunder, and flooding on the gd freeway! 

All the while Abby’s never been left alone so long in her life...had to go potty in huge storm with cloud to ground lightning!

I’m SO glad I made it home today...

fuck. 

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stuck in my head. ugh. headache hitting me behind my eye doesn't help either.

head shit all the way down.

i think i should start attending NAMI meetings. meds help, but unfucking 35 years is going to take some work.

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15 hours ago, DammitJanet said:

Ps he quoted me 750 bucks to fix it! I have 100 bucks to my name...

750 to fix the oil leaks?......Did he tell you what was causing the leak?.......I hope you can get a second opinion.

Here's a good article on oil leaks and most common causes:

https://repairpal.com/symptoms/car-oil-leaking

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24 minutes ago, CrazyRedhead said:

750 to fix the oil leaks?......Did he tell you what was causing the leak?.......I hope you can get a second opinion.

Here's a good article on oil leaks and most common causes:

https://repairpal.com/symptoms/car-oil-leaking

He mentioned gaskets? And that my spark plugs were flooded with oil. I’ll take a look at the link, thanks. 

And yes I’ll get a 3rd opinion after the one I have this morning. The guy this morning should give a discount since he screwed up when he did body damage after accident. 

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10 minutes ago, DammitJanet said:

He mentioned gaskets? And that my spark plugs were flooded with oil. I’ll take a look at the link, thanks. 

Yes, he probably meant valve cover gaskets, which when they go bad, are one of the most common causes of oil leaks.

Rough estimate to replace valve cover gaskets: https://repairpal.com/estimator/valve-cover-gasket-replacement-cost.........According to link, average cost for valve cover gasket replacement is estimated at 248-313 dollars.

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1 minute ago, CrazyRedhead said:

Yes, he probably meant valve cover gaskets, which when they go bad, are one of the most common causes of oil leaks.

Rough estimate to replace valve cover gaskets: https://repairpal.com/estimator/valve-cover-gasket-replacement-cost

His cost sounds right then if it’s 2 leaks. Oh well I’ll stop going on here about oil since it has little yet everything to do with my mood today. But last thing...estimate from yesterday doesn’t matter cause he was just an emergency mechanic to change oil and fill coolant and he was in Chattanooga, but now I’m home in Nashville. 

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2 minutes ago, DammitJanet said:

But last thing...estimate from yesterday doesn’t matter cause he was just an emergency mechanic to change oil and fill coolant and he was in Chattanooga, but now I’m home in Nashville. 

Yes, great idea to get another quote from your Nashville mechanic.

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14 hrs of sleep. Wasn’t riding high at all, but wow that crash

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Very anxious, tired, don't want to fly tonight, don't wanna in general. And what is it with my allergies in the past week? August isn't particularly a peak allergy time for me, but I keep having breakthrough symptoms even though I'm on loratadine. Mostly I get an itchy palate, which is maddening.

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I feel kinda sick - think I ate too much dinner. And my shoulder/neck pain seems to be back. 

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Apoplectic, again. The egg donor can’t apologize without turning right around saying but you hurt e and that’s why I did it! Fuck her. 

And the fvcking maid passed by my room again today so I just went into the hall asking if she would be coming today and she said oh...sure I guess. She’s so fucking reported. 

 Set up a gofundme page to get help fixing my cars oil gaskets and instead two people send DM’s on twitter asking me to donate to theirs. After I specifically state in my bio to not DM me. 

I’m terrified I’m not gonna be able to fix my car  

 

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