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Backache. Lift with your legs, idiot.

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Extremely anxious. Since the car incident and trying to figure out how to afford it I’m an absolute wreck. Abby must be feeling it too, cause she never used to bark at people unless they were men dressed in all black especially in a baseball cap. Now she even just barked at a hotel guest?! She started barking just a few days ago, and since that day too, I’ve had to take my xanax mid-morning when I’ve  always been able to wait until evening. I hate life right now. 

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Pretty good! Not a good night’s sleep, but I’m busy. Anticipating a quiet day, have lots to do. School starts tomorrow, so looking forward to a quiet week as well. Calm routine goes a long way for my mental health. 

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Well gd...hotel mgr had my mattress flipped yesterday, I slept an unreal 10 hours 😲 

and wtf does IDIOT me do?? Accidentally take my Trazadone this morning instead of Lamictal!! Yes, they’re always pill boxes to avoid this, but last night got too tired to refill them and was going to do it this morning. Totally exhausted...woke up incredibly refreshed. Fuck. 

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My right sacroiliac joint is opining, in no uncertain terms, that three hours of driving today were not appreciated, and that I will be punished for the eight I’m going to do tomorrow.

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I feel like a chapter in my life is beginning to close. Just waved goodbye to my senior on her last first day back to school. With the age gap in my three kids, I’ve had at least one kiddo in school for 27 straight years now, no break. Damn! Thought maybe my feelings were mixed... nope, not at all... all celebratory 😂

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9 hours ago, Gearhead said:

My right sacroiliac joint is opining, in no uncertain terms, that three hours of driving today were not appreciated, and that I will be punished for the eight I’m going to do tomorrow.

Ouch...I don’t like driving distances anymore...used to love it! But now with arthritis in my knees it’s getting painful even after my 2 hour drive to my neurologist. No fun! I hope you can make your drive without a huge amount of pain. 🤗 

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So god damned frustrated. 🤬 a guy on twitter works at a parts yard, and he bought the parts needed for my car, and he also already had paid for shipping...and the mechanic now refuses to use any parts from somewhere else! Can one thing f%*#@ go right?? 

This is all too much. I’m a wreck 

phew. One more person donated $5 dollars, bringing it up to $30! This helps so so much...now if I can just get my laundry done...out of undies as of today! TMI, yep. 

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Feeling detached from myself and the world and wondering why I'm here.

And wondering if I can reference research papers with errors in them.

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Just now, dancesintherain said:

Tired and Anxious.  The usual.

Sorry, dances. Me too, so I can relate.

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Ineffably apoplectic 🤬🤬🤬

I'm at the mechanic right now and he’s being a complete asshole!! I had showed him what another mechanic quoted me and dx’d my car with. So he says that’s all he’s doing right now... but said if it turns out to be something else, then it would be a whole new job. I said, can’t you look at it first and dx it yourself so we are positive that is what is wrong??? So he shakes his head and says he’s just going to do what the other mechanic said...but if it ends up being something else, it’d be a whole new job. 

Am I being unreasonable asking for him to fucking dx it himself FIRST??? Cause he treated me like absolute dog shit for my requesting that!!!!!

He is gonna get a shit review once this is done.

Oh. And someone on Twitter offered to send new parts for free to the mechanic to help with costs...he refused to use them. This is the rest of my money for the fucking rest of the month. 😡 

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35 minutes ago, DammitJanet said:

Am I being unreasonable asking for him to fucking dx it himself FIRST??? Cause he treated me like absolute dog shit for my requesting that!!!!! 

No, that is not unreasonable at all for you to ask that, although many mechanics do charge an extra fee for diagnosing a vehicle problem........Treating you rudely just for asking is terrible, though.

How long has he been your mechanic?

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