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36 minutes ago, Gearhead said:

@Unstrung Harp, I’m sorry you feel so bad. Can you see your pdoc soon?

I feel itchy. It’s coming on to ragweed season, damn it.

thanks 😕
The ragweed is out of control here now. My eyes are driving me crazy tonight.

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I am devastated......My sweet kitty who has been my companion for almost 16 years has passed away.....I can't describe how down I feel right now.

My friend who loves cats, too, brought me another kitty today......Not a kitten, but she's young....I love her already.

RIP, my precious little Phoebe......A gentle innocent soul, you will be greatly missed.

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28 minutes ago, CrazyRedhead said:

I am devastated......My sweet kitty who has been my companion for almost 16 years has passed away.....I can't describe how down I feel right now.

My friend who loves cats, too, brought me another kitty today......Not a kitten, but she's young....I love her already.

RIP, my precious little Phoebe......A gentle innocent soul, you will be greatly missed.

I'm sorry for your loss. Having to say goodbye is the hardest part of being a pet owner.

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Bleh. Feel weird.
Exercise time. 4 hrs later than planned. Trying to start anyways.

cornerstone of treatment. 
bleh.

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Feel marginally better after the downstairs of house has been somewhat straightened and vacuumed for the first time in like a month a half, though that didn't happen without some eyeballing on the part of my husband and my teenage daughter telling me she hates being home, so it was not without emotional consequences. 

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So so sleepy despite getting damn near 8 hrs of sleep. Lol remeron.

Feel much better though. Let's see where this goes

 

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@CrazyRedhead i'm so sorry to hear about your sweet kitty passing. i wish love made them live longer. take gentle care of yourself while you grieve.

@MiaB how are you doing? i hope things are a bit better for you.

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First day in several days where I didn’t feel unrelenting depression and emotional pain. I don’t know it was seeing pdoc or him adding a new med or some random other thing,

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Relatively decent, although not eager about the approaching conversation about intrusive self-harm thoughts.  I trust my therapist, so the rational part of my brain knows it will go okay.  But the emotional part of my brain is worried.

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i'm still tired. wtf. i forgot how sedating this thing was.

i can't imagine how sedating seroquel or zypreza is over remeron. As the AAPs are even more sedating

i think those might kill me

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1 hour ago, echolocation said:

@CrazyRedhead i'm so sorry to hear about your sweet kitty passing. i wish love made them live longer. take gentle care of yourself while you grieve

Thank you, echo.........

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Ok I guess...After sleeping the morning away, dragged myself to gym this evening for cardio class. Was really tough. At least I left my room (sad that this is an accomplishment) Will go to bed before 2am, my schedule is all F'd up. Waking up late ruins most of my day and I can't seem to catch up....

 

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48 minutes ago, argh said:

i'm still tired. wtf. i forgot how sedating this thing was.

i can't imagine how sedating seroquel or zypreza is over remeron. As the AAPs are even more sedating

i think those might kill me

I took Remeron for a few days once and I still think of it as “the lost weekend.” I was a complete zombie.

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3 minutes ago, Unstrung Harp said:

I took Remeron for a few days once and I still think of it as “the lost weekend.” I was a complete zombie.

I'm a well rested zombie, but yeah..wow. 30+ wasn't as bad in sedation, but that'd be asking for trouble and i'm picking the option of stay compliant/don't wreck my shit.

trazodone it is.

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22 minutes ago, argh said:

stay compliant/don't wreck my shit.

That needs to be a bumper sticker... 

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I looked at a computer screen for too long today.

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Worried. I think I am gaining weight. The scale is giving me 3 different readings. I hope it’s not the first one. That would mean I gained 5-6 pounds this month. 😔 

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