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Better than earlier. 

 

Not "Good", but thoughts are flowing and varied. Hope that it lasts. 

 

It is 4am, I'm planning on getting fasting blood tests today. 

Drinking lots of water. After nurse couldn't get a drop of blood from me last time. Consequently peeing a whole lot.

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Sleepy.

bleh. Brain is out to get me. Ive convinced myself that im not bipolar in the slightest. Its meds time, so fuck you brain. Unless i really don’t need them.

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Stressed by looming deadline and anxious about meetup networking event tonight (& lecture thing). All strangers/professionals, which makes me intimidated. I need something to turn out positive right now.

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feeling good, after starting xmas shopping 

 

mostly trying for low cost this year. Searching ebay etc for vintage collectables. Found a mate a 1950's advert for "Build a houseboat (on weekly payment plan)" (he's into houseboats) and things of that nature

 

IDK, but I enjoy this stuff, gives me a lift :)

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@Hume's doona i love christmas shopping. i think giving gifts is a big way of how i express my appreciation for others, so it's always really fun for me to find something they'd like. :) 

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1 hour ago, Hume's doona said:

feeling good, after starting xmas shopping 

 

mostly trying for low cost this year. Searching ebay etc for vintage collectables. Found a mate a 1950's advert for "Build a houseboat (on weekly payment plan)" (he's into houseboats) and things of that nature

 

IDK, but I enjoy this stuff, gives me a lift :)

Admittedly I too have begun Xmas shopping! I really enjoy it as well! I'm horrible at waiting to give the person the gift until Xmas though! I can hardly keep it a secret! I just want to give it to them immediately! I really agree that picking out gifts is enjoyable. I love to do it too.

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6 hours ago, Hume's doona said:

feeling good, after starting xmas shopping 

Christmas shopping! Jesus marimba, I’ll get around to that something in...Xmas is in December, right?

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32 minutes ago, Gearhead said:

Christmas shopping! Jesus marimba, I’ll get around to that something in...Xmas is in December, right?

well...

 

I mail out 1st December

And buying a few things each pay is better for me :dunce:

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So sleepy, lethargic, BLAH. All I want to do is curl up in bed, so comfy, so warm, soothing.

My mind can't think right now. Coffee isn't helping either .

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Feeling sad, because I looked at some pictures from years ago......Sometimes "memory lane" doesn't help....**SIGH**

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I was doing really well until someone asked me how far along I was.  I said I was just fat.  

I could have been more tactful with my response, but I want people to learn that it’s not okay to ask that question.

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16 minutes ago, dancesintherain said:

I was doing really well until someone asked me how far along I was.  I said I was just fat.  

I could have been more tactful with my response, but I want people to learn that it’s not okay to ask that question.

Argh! I’m so sorry dances! When will idiots learn that that question is NEVER ok to ask anyone EVER, NO MATTER WHAT!? You never know if someone is pregnant or not, no matter how they look! This is one of my biggest pet peeves! What if you had a tumor on your abdomen? I knew a woman who did and she just looked like she had gained a large amount of weight in her stomach area. She was older, so I doubt she got asked that question, but still! I think your response was fine. You can say anything to the person who asked that. Screw them. It is definitely not ok to ask that question to anyone. 

FWIW I carry my weight in my stomach area. I bet I look pregnant to some people. Ugh. Definitely not ok to ask it though!

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Debating whether to go to a group today. I feel well, like I don’t need that sort of thing anymore, but I also like the social element and getting out of the house... so I don’t know. I have awhile to decide. 

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1 hour ago, Wonderful.Cheese said:

Argh! I’m so sorry dances! When will idiots learn that that question is NEVER ok to ask anyone EVER, NO MATTER WHAT!? You never know if someone is pregnant or not, no matter how they look! This is one of my biggest pet peeves! What if you had a tumor on your abdomen? I knew a woman who did and she just looked like she had gained a large amount of weight in her stomach area. She was older, so I doubt she got asked that question, but still! I think your response was fine. You can say anything to the person who asked that. Screw them. It is definitely not ok to ask that question to anyone. 

FWIW I carry my weight in my stomach area. I bet I look pregnant to some people. Ugh. Definitely not ok to ask it though!

Thanks Cheese.  I appreciate that I’m not the only one who finds it inappropriate.  I also carry my weight in my stomach area.  What sucks is although I’ve lost 35 pounds I have another 30 to go.

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