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I feel weirded out by everything.  Like there is something catastrophic going on but I am not sure how it will end up.  I am really nervous, dreading the usual 4 am panic wake up.I

I am worried now having said this, I have been told that I could make it worse by saying or writing any of it.

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🤦‍♂️🤦‍♀️Avoided coffee all day, because I have been so anxious.

 
Just had a coffee, and I think that it was actually caffeine withdrawal 
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I've been on hold for 40 mins for grocery gateway.  Trying to get food in the panic

On 3/11/2020 at 4:02 AM, DogMan said:

🤦‍♂️🤦‍♀️Avoided coffee all day, because I have been so anxious.

 
Just had a coffee, and I think that it was actually caffeine withdrawal 

I get bad headaches when I don't drink a coffee

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My power just went out for 30 seconds, and now I’m really on edge that that is going to be a thing too.

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Completely losing my freaking mind I am terrified to the bone and consumed I can’t think of anything else it is a always on my mind I am afraid. I don’t want to be here anymore for this pandemic. I give up I am not strong enough to survive an apocalypse. Wtf am I supposed to do? Take my meds and go to bed? What if something bad happens while I’m asleep?! My meds knock me out pretty hard. I’m so anxious 

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Everyone hates me and I want to die. Background noise. There's better soundtracks like maybe the A-Team theme tune would be cool. I haven't been diagnosed with anything. I haven't been diagnosed. I tried once but it didn't go anywhere. There's some comfort in having a name for it. Probably chronic depression with some social anxiety thrown in just for fun. I'm not right anyway. Thinking that everyone hates me and I want to die, even if at some level I know that's bullshit, it's not a good way to think. Would a label help? When it's a chronic condition it's difficult to see it as a disease because it's always been part of you. When did I first think about killing myself? Never acted on the thought but it's a fucking shitty thought to have.

tl;dr miserable about being miserable.

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I do'nt hate you FiS.   I'd say multiple people here don't hate you.  Though I understand it frequently  doesn't feel that way. 

I'm anxious and frustrated because I can't fall asleep.  That triggers my anxiety about mania.  I've taken as many PRNs as I'm comfortable with, given that I accidentally overdosed on sleep medication before.

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I've been trying to figure this out. It's grief. I feel grief.

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So f'ing tired, drowsy, brain foggy, irritable.... mood is fair, but all I want to do is sleep. Cleaned house yesterday and allergies are awful.

[ADD] Minor brain zaps starting... negative emotions coming back. I just want to feel GOOD.

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Oh mylanta. Thank ye scientists or medical professionals or who the hell ever for inventing zyprexa zydis. What would I do without it? My miracle med! I am taking it as prescribed FINALLY. 10 mg AM and 10 mg bedtime. Why didn’t I do this before? Dumb dumb dumb dumb!

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