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The thought of self-harming passed so I probably didn't mean it. Doesn't that sound self-pitying? And that makes me hate myself even more. I probably need to sleep. I am fucking trash though.

 

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1 hour ago, Fluent In Silence said:

The thought of self-harming passed so I probably didn't mean it. Doesn't that sound self-pitying? And that makes me hate myself even more. I probably need to sleep. I am fucking trash though.

 

I am sorry you feel so much self-hate but I also completely relate.  "I hate myself" is a daily mantra I know I should edit but it sticks there like a bad rash anyways.  

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small, lonesome. i saw a friend today. i feel some sort of emptiness now that she's gone home.

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ashamed of myself

I have gained 21 lbs in March and April

too much comfort eating

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Rejected

Abandoned

Isolated

Protective

It's so weird but I've reached out to many people, for whatever reason I needed to, and many did not respond. No reply. No answer. No response. 

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when i was in elementary school kids i knew sang this song that started with "nobody likes me, everybody hates me, guess i'll go eat worms". lately i've been feeling a lot like i should go eat worms.

what do you know, it's on youtube.

 

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On the one hand I got some work done and feel somewhat good about that, on the other hand I can't get out of the cycle of berating myself for everything I say or do.

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Winter is stupid 

Allergies suck 

Winter allergies are stupid and suck

 

:violin:

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22 hours ago, echolocation said:

i am so irritable lately. what on earth is my problem?

The fucking sun. Too much daylight. 

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On 6/15/2020 at 8:58 PM, Gearhead said:

The fucking sun. Too much daylight

Do you ever feel like summer is too much pressure? Like "it's sunny, you should be happy." Why do people put such high expectations on us in the summer?  Some years I feel like I have failed summer.

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2 hours ago, Complicated toad said:

Do you ever feel like summer is too much pressure? Like "it's sunny, you should be happy." Why do people put such high expectations on us in the summer?  Some years I feel like I have failed summer.

Yes. I loathe summer. It would be great if people respected that. 

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On 6/20/2020 at 12:29 AM, Gearhead said:

Sad. Lonely.

Sorry Gearhead, you are always so supportive of the rest of us on here you deserve some support when you're sad and lonely.  Sending you support.

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