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I got hired, ladi-da-di-da!!! So happy. Am loving the lexapro too. Good stuff. My negative thoughts are easier to fend off and I can actually switch to a positive attitude with effort. That'

Had to take my 14yo cattle dog to the emergency vet today. She had massive internal bleeding from a previously undiagnosed tumor most likely. She couldn’t be saved. It’s a bad night.

human. finally had a shower for the first time in what, a week? i feel like a bog witch who's being reintroduced to society. 

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I am not good.  I can't tell anyone around me, if I go blabbing that I feel like a worthless person and life is pretty much miserable and hopeless they get upset.  So I sit stuck in this cesspool of barely able to do anything and to everyone else I am a lazy sack of crap.  Sorry for puking this on you guys I just can't say it anywhere else.

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@Complicated toad, telling us how you feel is what we exist for. I know how you feel. This is not what I planned for my life. And my IRL people don’t get it.

@echolocation, change sucks. It’s hard to process. But you can do it. It might even prove to be interesting, once you get a handle on it. Good luck tomorrow!

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thanks @Gearhead.   Living with MI feels like part of us is on an island no one else can see.  Who wants to tell your family just to be lectured about the problem is you just need to try harder to "think positive."  Pretty sure if i could positive affirmation myself out of this I'd have done it a long time ago.

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5 minutes ago, Blahblah said:

OK...i suppose the forced running today helped. Went 3 day in a row, but I cannot do it consistently.

I hate running, but tiring out my body lets me escape my mind.

Well done.

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On 11/19/2020 at 6:43 PM, Fluent In Silence said:

I do keep imagining stabbing myself in the neck but otherwise everything is fine.

Let’s work on not imagining that. When the ideation begins, start by freezing the mental image with the [stabby object] at a position before it pierces your skin. Then, with it stalled in place, mentally point it away from you. Or better yet, if you can, throw it away or simply erase it.

That’s what I do when hit with a sudden impulse to either stab myself with an imaginary blade or blow my brains out with a phantom firearm. As soon as I start to feel the impulse I now automatically ‘stop time’ and eliminate the imagined threat. While this doesn’t necessarily do anything to fix what’s causing me to have the self-destructive impulses in the first place, it does short-circuit the cycle of reaction that would reinforce the negative impulse with physical/psychological impact that would leave me feeling worse about myself. By acting to prevent your self-stabbing, you affirm that you neither need nor deserve to be stabbed, and refute the negative drive behind the impulse. Over time and with practice, the action becomes more and more automatic, and the impulse less and less frequent or noticeable.

Or, each time you feel the impulse, you could instead imagine stabbing yourself in the neck with a warm stick of butter, which would be a) ineffective and b) more likely to make you laugh than cry.

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4 hours ago, Cerberus said:

Or, each time you feel the impulse, you could instead imagine stabbing yourself in the neck with a warm stick of butter, which would be a) ineffective and b) more likely to make you laugh than cry.

Would a butter-like spread work as well? It's not real butter but it has all the flavour (booo! terrible attempt at a joke.). Things are going fine, which makes it more incomprehensible when my mood dive bombs. Maybe I'm just unfamiliar with things going OK and I yearn for the old familiarity of expecting everything to go wrong. There's some comfort in certainty even when it is all negative and awful. What? People seem to like me? People see me as intelligent? On my Uni course I mean. They're decent people and I like talking to them, but all sorts of crap interferes, as it does here sometimes.   

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11 hours ago, Cerberus said:

Or, each time you feel the impulse, you could instead imagine stabbing yourself in the neck with a warm stick of butter, which would be a) ineffective and b) more likely to make you laugh than cry.

Also quite possibly something you could make money off of if you recorded it and put it on YouTube.

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