mike donald Posted December 6, 2013 Share Posted December 6, 2013 so, i developed this weird thing i guess when i got off of antidepressants. i used to be able to dress like i wanted when on antidepressants. i could wear my hair long and in my face and wear my band t shirts and generally not be aware or concerned about how i was looking. NOW off of these antideppresants i've developed this kind of ocd type thing. i don't know what it is. if i wear a shirt with any kind of picture or writing on it i become aware that it is on me and its like there's a giant tarantula on my chest and i just have to scrape it off. it becomes so unpleasant and distracting that i can't focus on conversations or be comfortable. sometimes if i have had the nerve to fight this new thing I'm having and have the audacity to put on a shirt with pictures and go out and talk to people, i'll have to go in the bathroom and turn my shirt inside out or put on a jacket and return to the party or wherever and then i'll be fine. someone might say, "well just don't wear shirts with anything on it!" the problem is, i can no longer dress like i want, or express myself. i can only wear very plain clothes or shit gets weird. my psychiatrist and psychologist don't even really have any idea why this is going on or what it is. and i don't think they are aware of how much it bothers me. and it bothers me A LOT. and the same goes with my hair. i have long hair but i can't wear it how i would like cuz things get "weird." like i've described. sometimes i just want to shave it off. so, does anyone have any idea what the fuck is wrong with me??? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
olga Posted December 6, 2013 Share Posted December 6, 2013 We can't tell you what is wrong, but I wanted to welcome you to Crazyboards. I would suggest that you show them what you wrote ^^^ and maybe seeing it in black and white will explain to them how important this is to you. I get it, and I can see how disturbing this is. I ask all new members to read the rules, if you didn't read them when you signed up. Welcome to CB! olga Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Parapluie Posted December 7, 2013 Share Posted December 7, 2013 Welcome! Sorry about your strange effect with antidepressants. I agree with Olga, maybe print off this post. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Phoenix_Rising Posted December 7, 2013 Share Posted December 7, 2013 Welcome to Crazyboards! I'm sorry you're having trouble with tshirts. I can only echo olga and parapluie's suggestion to print this post off and show it to your doctor. Do you have a therapist? I think it would be helpful to talk to one. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mike donald Posted December 9, 2013 Author Share Posted December 9, 2013 aww shit. thanks guys. i was hoping someone on here had something at least similar. i came to the boards cuz the docs they can't help me. oh well Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mike donald Posted December 9, 2013 Author Share Posted December 9, 2013 so, i developed this weird thing i guess when i got off of antidepressants. i used to be able to dress like i wanted when on antidepressants. i could wear my hair long and in my face and wear my band t shirts and generally not be aware or concerned about how i was looking. NOW off of these antideppresants i've developed this kind of ocd type thing. i don't know what it is. if i wear a shirt with any kind of picture or writing on it i become aware that it is on me and its like there's a giant tarantula on my chest and i just have to scrape it off. it becomes so unpleasant and distracting that i can't focus on conversations or be comfortable. sometimes if i have had the nerve to fight this new thing I'm having and have the audacity to put on a shirt with pictures and go out and talk to people, i'll have to go in the bathroom and turn my shirt inside out or put on a jacket and return to the party or wherever and then i'll be fine. someone might say, "well just don't wear shirts with anything on it!" the problem is, i can no longer dress like i want, or express myself. i can only wear very plain clothes or shit gets weird. my psychiatrist and psychologist don't even really have any idea why this is going on or what it is. and i don't think they are aware of how much it bothers me. and it bothers me A LOT. and the same goes with my hair. i have long hair but i can't wear it how i would like cuz things get "weird." like i've described. sometimes i just want to shave it off. so, does anyone have any idea what the fuck is wrong with me??? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
melissaw72 Posted December 9, 2013 Share Posted December 9, 2013 Why did you go off of the antidepressants? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mike donald Posted December 9, 2013 Author Share Posted December 9, 2013 so, i developed this weird thing i guess when i got off of antidepressants. i used to be able to dress like i wanted when on antidepressants. i could wear my hair long and in my face and wear my band t shirts and generally not be aware or concerned about how i was looking. NOW off of these antideppresants i've developed this kind of ocd type thing. i don't know what it is. if i wear a shirt with any kind of picture or writing on it i become aware that it is on me and its like there's a giant tarantula on my chest and i just have to scrape it off. it becomes so unpleasant and distracting that i can't focus on conversations or be comfortable. sometimes if i have had the nerve to fight this new thing I'm having and have the audacity to put on a shirt with pictures and go out and talk to people, i'll have to go in the bathroom and turn my shirt inside out or put on a jacket and return to the party or wherever and then i'll be fine. someone might say, "well just don't wear shirts with anything on it!" the problem is, i can no longer dress like i want, or express myself. i can only wear very plain clothes or shit gets weird. my psychiatrist and psychologist don't even really have any idea why this is going on or what it is. and i don't think they are aware of how much it bothers me. and it bothers me A LOT. and the same goes with my hair. i have long hair but i can't wear it how i would like cuz things get "weird." like i've described. sometimes i just want to shave it off. so, does anyone have any idea what the fuck is wrong with me??? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mike donald Posted December 9, 2013 Author Share Posted December 9, 2013 makes my genitals numb where i can't orgasm for weeks. made me want to consume lots of alcohol and cigarettes. heart palpitations. effexor worked really well for me, but the problems kept adding up. i really miss the good things it did for me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mike donald Posted December 9, 2013 Author Share Posted December 9, 2013 sorry i didn't mean to post this twice Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
melissaw72 Posted December 9, 2013 Share Posted December 9, 2013 There are many antidepressants and other meds out there ... maybe your DR can help you find one that works like the other one did (without the side effects). Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mike donald Posted December 9, 2013 Author Share Posted December 9, 2013 so, i developed this weird thing i guess when i got off of antidepressants. i used to be able to dress like i wanted when on antidepressants. i could wear my hair long and in my face and wear my band t shirts and generally not be aware or concerned about how i was looking. NOW off of these antideppresants i've developed this kind of ocd type thing. i don't know what it is. if i wear a shirt with any kind of picture or writing on it i become aware that it is on me and its like there's a giant tarantula on my chest and i just have to scrape it off. it becomes so unpleasant and distracting that i can't focus on conversations or be comfortable. sometimes if i have had the nerve to fight this new thing I'm having and have the audacity to put on a shirt with pictures and go out and talk to people, i'll have to go in the bathroom and turn my shirt inside out or put on a jacket and return to the party or wherever and then i'll be fine. someone might say, "well just don't wear shirts with anything on it!" the problem is, i can no longer dress like i want, or express myself. i can only wear very plain clothes or shit gets weird. my psychiatrist and psychologist don't even really have any idea why this is going on or what it is. and i don't think they are aware of how much it bothers me. and it bothers me A LOT. and the same goes with my hair. i have long hair but i can't wear it how i would like cuz things get "weird." like i've described. sometimes i just want to shave it off. so, does anyone have any idea what the fuck is wrong with me??? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
writehellarandomshiny Posted December 9, 2013 Share Posted December 9, 2013 there might be some other people in the other areas of the forums who have the same issues, even if they didn't reply to this post. welcome to cb. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
confused Posted December 9, 2013 Share Posted December 9, 2013 topics merged Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dustin scarsdale Posted January 20, 2014 Share Posted January 20, 2014 Eg Ive been like that before medication...I just don't like to advertise/be a walking billboard. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MacadamiaNUT Posted January 28, 2014 Share Posted January 28, 2014 (edited) Medication can be a gift and a curse, I've had some unreal and terrifying side effects from meds as well and it sucks balls. As for depression, Effexor has been working pretty well for me so far.. Sorry to hear that the doctors haven't been helpful. I have no medical expertise so definitely check with them, but I'm just curious: I've heard that people with OCD/aversion issues often do exposure treatment.. you gradually expose yourself more and more to the thing that causes you discomfort (I.e. Start by just carrying the shirt for a while, then put it on for five minutes, then longer...Etc as you increasingly can tolerate it) Did any of your docs suggest something similar? I had to do something sort of like that a few years ago for an OCD issue- excessive hand washing (I would wash until my hands cracked an bled).. It wasn't fool proof but it was helpful... I don't do it anymore, so that's one problem to cross off my long list lol Anyway, thank you for sharing and best of luck! Edited January 28, 2014 by MacadamiaNUT Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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