Chickenlips Posted January 30, 2014 Share Posted January 30, 2014 Hi.... I am really hoping that the reality lives up to the hype on this site.... I have been looking for somewhere to "discuss" my C*R*A*Z*Y for a while. My name is Phil, I have no friends at all, well no close ones. People and I don't get along that well. I find that people after a while are like... oooooookkkkkkkkay bit weird here and they quickly move on.... I am currently receiving some great treatment from a good psychiatrist even though I have decided to stop taking my Zyprexa for a while..... it dulls me down too much! I am worried that my neighbours are going to break in and kill me. They have a plan and they meet and talk to each other about me. One of my neighbours got onto my bus the other day and I was like "ok she is on here to scope me out and report back to the group"..... I also heard my neighbour say "I can't believe he is still alive"...... scary shit.... can't go to the shops without hyping myself up first (sometimes I go without basics) cause they all wave at each other and say "he's here!"...... Ummmm, I had a breakdown or something in high school.... laughing one minute and crying the next, bullied every day.... couldn't cope! Found out my dad had similar stuff happen (he died a few years ago). Apparently he blacked out and used to smell strange smells. Mum said that she promised him she wouldn't ever tell anyone, wish I had known earlier, could have been helpful (?) Would lock myself in the bedroom with the lights out for hours on end, found walking down the street really hard, thinking people were talking about me etc.... not good! IT took ages to get a diagnosis, been almost two years now since that happened... I dunno, really hoping that this is somewhere I can get good info, make some online buddies and let out my stuff.... without judgement. Thanks for reading.... BTW I'm 40...... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Chickenlips Posted January 30, 2014 Author Share Posted January 30, 2014 Thought I should say that apparently I have Schizoaffective Disorder...... (bonus) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Pamito Posted January 30, 2014 Share Posted January 30, 2014 Hi Phil, I'm from Oz too, and also have schizoaffective disorder. (Snap!) This is a great place, I have lurked and posted a bit for many years. You will find great camaraderie here. I find my meds dull me down a lot too, unfortunately I just accept it because they keep the crazy away. The Schizophrenia forum is great, people are very supportive. Cheers and nice to meet you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Phoenix_Rising Posted January 30, 2014 Share Posted January 30, 2014 Hello Phil and Welcome to Crazyboards! We ask all our new members to read the User Agreement just to make sure we're all on the same page. Crazyboards is a very supportive, informative community...I think you will like it here. Take care and I look forward to seeing you on the Boards. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
olga Posted January 30, 2014 Share Posted January 30, 2014 Hi, Chickenlips! I love the name. We have a large contingent of members from Oz, so I hope you will feel at home and comfortable about talking about your life. I don't know if we can live up to any hype, but I can tell you that CB has saved my life and helped me to preserve my sanity. People here can give you a reality check, offer suggestions about dealing with the health care system, and just generally act as friends when you really need them. Did you let your doctor know you have gone off the Zyprexa? You need to call him if you haven't done that already. olga Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Chickenlips Posted January 30, 2014 Author Share Posted January 30, 2014 Thanks for the welcome everyone! I just realised I kinda overshared maybe? lol oh well.... looking forward to getting engaged on this site.... Cheers P Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jessamine Posted January 31, 2014 Share Posted January 31, 2014 Hi. Another Aussie here. Glad you found us. Don't worry about an over share....sometimes its nice to get things out with people who understand. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Chickenlips Posted February 1, 2014 Author Share Posted February 1, 2014 Hi, Chickenlips! I love the name. We have a large contingent of members from Oz, so I hope you will feel at home and comfortable about talking about your life. I don't know if we can live up to any hype, but I can tell you that CB has saved my life and helped me to preserve my sanity. People here can give you a reality check, offer suggestions about dealing with the health care system, and just generally act as friends when you really need them. Did you let your doctor know you have gone off the Zyprexa? You need to call him if you haven't done that already. olga Hey olga.... ummm yup I did. She isn't really happy that I have stopped but she was like lets see how you go.... I just feel if I can fight through it maybe all will be well. I am studying at uni and want to be sharp for that..... I am struggling but determined. My mum and sister are on my back to take meds and I hate that..... I wish they just understood that I wanna give it a go.... I don't see them that much anyway so..... if I'm honest I'm actually angry that I have to take anything at all! The anger won out over everything else. I take Pristiq for the depression and thats enough for now. (meanwhile in two weeks I'm freaking out and back on them again..... LOL ) We shall see..... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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