Cheers86 Posted February 18, 2014 Share Posted February 18, 2014 I am in crisis. I can't leave the house without picking fights and I'm terrified of being arrested, so I stay home. My group therapy is making me feel worse; we just sit there until someone says something and the facilitator's don't say much and if they do it's never insightful or even helpful. I've recently lost my job because of my anger and can't get back on the horse as I have constant panic attacks. Horrific flashbacks started last week and now I feel like my abuser is stalking me; he's always in the shadows. I told my therapist's and they said nothing. I don't sleep unless I really have to and the sleeping pills don't knock me out. My new, supposed to be magical according to others who take them, meds are doing nothing for me. I took a big step and took myself to hospital, stayed for 4 nights and became an expert at pictionary and smoked 20 a day; seriously did nothing for me yet I didn't want to leave. I'm tired of calling up my gp and been given a new prescription or calong the crisis line and told to tell my therapists about it, because neither things help. I want to die but I'm not allowed to and that makes me the saddest. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
olga Posted February 18, 2014 Share Posted February 18, 2014 Wow, that sounds pretty darn grim. It would seem that your treatment team is ineffective. Can you get a new therapist? Is a psychiatrist prescribing your meds, or is it your GP? The facilitator with the group therapy sounds totally ineffectual. Welcome to Crazyboards, by the way. Please read the rules if you haven't done so already. I know our other members will be offering sympathy and advice. If you want to post in one of the forums, you might get more specific responses. I think you should check out the Healthcare System Sucks and the Anxiety and PTSD boards. I hope we can offer you some support. olga Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Phoenix_Rising Posted February 18, 2014 Share Posted February 18, 2014 I'm terribly sorry that you are feeling so awful. I agree with olga--it sounds like you could use a new treatment team. How long have you been on your new meds? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cheers86 Posted February 18, 2014 Author Share Posted February 18, 2014 thank you for you kindness olga and Phoenix_Rising. im going to try posting in those boards and have a look around there as well. a psychiatrist prescribed my meds (quetiapine 100mg a day) when i was hospitalised and my gp today has said she'll refer me back to my treatment team to increase my dose; that's right drug me up until i stop complaining! i'm going to push for individual therapy and cbt because i know i can't get anywhere right now without coping skills. at least here there are people who understand and know what they are talking about Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
olga Posted February 19, 2014 Share Posted February 19, 2014 I think you are absolutely correct that individual therapy and CBT could be a huge help to you. Seroquel has been a very effective drug for a lot of our members. I don't know what dosage everyone takes, but I would talk to some of the folks here about their experiences with it. We have people who swear by the stuff. However, if it doesn't work for you, your pdoc should be willing to try other meds. I think it's good if your GP wants to have your psychiatrist prescribing the psych meds: GPs really aren't trained in that specialty. Also, I think several of our members take Seroquel in conjunction with other meds. You sound more hopeful today and I think it's great that you want to take charge of your treatment. Get in there and fight for yourself! rah rah rah!! (I used to sell cheerleading uniforms---I can't help myself.) Keep us posted. I hope things look up for you. olga Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cheers86 Posted February 22, 2014 Author Share Posted February 22, 2014 Thanks again olga especially for the cheering. I took the initiative and upped my dose myself as I like to pre empt DRs so i don't get the "try this and I'll see you in a few months" fob off. can you tell I'm not best pleased with the medical profession? bad experiences for the past...ooh...20 odd years. I'll go see what people say about the meds and hopefully go to my appointment armed with info Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
olga Posted February 22, 2014 Share Posted February 22, 2014 It all sounds good and I'm glad you came back to tell us what you're doing. Getting effective treatment for our MI can be very difficult. olga Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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