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[ejensen1324]

Hey all- 

 

Quick blurb about myself. I'm an early 20's female American from Wisconsin. Summer of 2011 I admitted to having an eating disorder (EDNOS since I don't quite fit the rigid qualifications of anorexia)  and pretty severe depression/self harm, having refused to believe I had any sort of problem all throughout high school. I'd already known about my problems with anxiety at that point. Soon after that I moved out (not telling my family "the news" until after I'd already signed a lease-- I didn't want to be committed to some sort of program or anything) and started seeing a therapist (whom I still see now).

 

I used to keep a blog, but I found that it caused more harm than good so I deleted it. I'm just now getting out of a major depressive spell, though there still are days when I resort back to pretty dark places. 

 

I've been having problems staying awake during the day, and after trying a few different depression meds and having a sleep study, the doctors have no idea what's going on, so they put me on a stimulant and said "Sorry- don't know what's wrong. Take some iron. You'll be fine"... NOT happy with that. I have 2 siblings with autoimmune disorders and such-- they won't actually dig deeper to find out what's wrong, even knowing family history. 2nd opinion coming in April..

 

Aaand that's that. Oh, I'm a composer and former music major before I left college in 2011. I'll be going to a different school this fall. I think leaving school triggered a pretty massive depressive period.

[shesellsseashells]

Welcome to CB!  This is a great place to find support and honest opinions.  I hope your experience here is as positive as mine has been.

[Elsa]

Hi! I think leaving school triggered a depressive phase for me too, I'm still not out of it 8 months later. I kept a blog too, and ended up deleting it because it was just not the right thing to do at the time. Probably for the best!

 

There's an auto immune disorder in my mums side of the family, mum has it, and I'm the eldest child. I've had so many problems over the past few months, tiredness, illness, shaking... they diagnosed me as celiac then changed their minds and it was a gluten intolerance, then it was an iron deficiency. now they're blaming anxiety? Which i've had since I was 15, so I highly doubt it. Being a 'pain' is the best thing when it comes to getting a diagnosis. Keep bothering them and they'll eventually cave in and give you more weird tests, hopefully they'll find something and be able to make you feel better! Being tired all day is awful. 

 

The health care system! Hiphip hooray!

 

Nice to meet you :-) 

[olga]

Welcome to Crazyboards!  I ask all new members to read the rules, unless you did that when you signed up.

 

I hope the doctors can find out what's going on---it's frustrating when you can't get a definitive answer.

 

If you want to write a blog here, you can make it completely private, or invite a few people to read it.  I think it's very helpful to write a blog and organize my thoughts a bit.

 

olga

[San]

Hi, welcome to CB. Leaving school can be VERY difficult. Interesting major, you must be very talented! Good luck when you go back.

I really hope you get an answer, sooner than later.

Sometimes you have to fight to get an answer. I hope you don't have to fight too hard. Be an advocate for yourself. Demand answers. You'll get them. It helps if you have a good, supportive team, or a family member even.

 

Like olga said, we have blogs here, private or public to CB members. I find it helpful to rant sometimes, or post happy things. You can get feedback, and blogland is really open. I'm glad you see a therapist (tdoc). Ask your tdoc about getting into doctors to see what is really wrong. Tdoc's can be awesome advocates.