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[Bonita]

Do you ever sleep so little that you wonder why you even own a bed? I find myself frequently gazing at my bed and filled with anger over the sleep it always eludes me from. I've had insomnia as far back as I can remember. Also what little sleep I get is found in the early morning hours. Since I've had this condition for so long, I've tried almost every sleep aid available both OTC and prescription. I've found it extremely hard to get that delicate balance, one that: puts me to sleep, stay asleep for 6-8 hours, AND doesn't make you feel tired/zombie a hunk of the next day. Has anyone found their miracle pill yet?? I've tried so many that just plain don't work. There were a few that knock me out but wake me up every hour for no apparent reason. Then many in the worst category....those that knock me out but there is/would be no satisfactory amount of sleep that would kill the sleepiness, grogginess, and feel like a zombie or drunk half of the next day.

I've found a few Rx that did do the job satisfactory but I build tolerances to them quite quickly. Trazadone was one that seemed to work but my tolerance raised the dosage to its max in about 6 months. On the other hand, Ambien did not work at all for me. I saw no butterflies, enjoyed no dreams, got no sleep! I'm currently taking Miratazapine for my insomnia. It puts me to sleep, but it makes me want/need 12 hours of sleep (which places it in the USELESS category for me).

Anyways, has anyone found this magical, gift from God sleeping pill that I so desperately seek????  Or is anybody even happy with whatever med you take for your insomnia?

[Elsa]

I remember I would spend more time asleep on the sofa than I would in my own bed. I think at one point I even convinced myself that the bed was the reason I couldn't get to sleep. 

 

There is no magical pill yet, sadly. A friend used to be kept awake for days at a time thanks to his insomnia. We had a sleep over party once when I was 17 and he took a cocktail of meds for sleeping, but in the end he spent 6 hours kicking a ball around a garden whilst the rest of them were sleeping. I spent those 6 hours bobbing up and down on a trampoline. We were too tired to even talk, yet neither of us could sleep. The fact that there were other people in the house sleeping used to make me so jealous and angry. Especially if I could lie there and hear my dad snoring or something in the next room.

 

If my sleep pattern is messed up (IE night shifts or a late one at work) I am screwed. 5am is a good time for me to 'sleep' but then 8am is a good time for me to wake up. No amount of pills will cure a messed up routine. If I sleep in late it takes me a week to correct it because I have to correct my sleep routine an hour at a time. I don't drink, eat or watch tv/computer for awhile before bed because my head gets overstimulated... I start to think, and thinking part of insomnia drives me LOOPY. 

 

The more I think, the more I tell myself not to think. And then I have a horrible sensation. Have I forgotten how to fall asleep? Do I just close my eyes? Do I have to roll my eyes to the back of my head? Oh no, that aches. Maybe I'm sleeping on the wrong side. 

 

Don't even get me started on jetlag and insomnia. Seriously. *cries*

 

I feel your pain! I get tired, like I could sleep tired, at 11pm (now time) and so I get into bed and then my brains like HA, just kidding. Would you look at that, its 3am. Oops. 

Edited March 6, 2014 by Elsa

[Bonita]

LOL Yes, right on point!! Especially the "thinking cycle." Can't sleep so you think about why you can't sleep. Then you think that the thinking is what is keeping you up so you try to think about how to stop thinking. Once you've thought and thought about that, you give up to only circle back to thinking why can't I sleep??

I hate it when "sleepers" (those that have no sleeping issues) try to offer me suggestions. "Just go to bed and close your eyes, you'll fall asleep." Negative Einstein. 

[Bam]

LOL Yes, right on point!! Especially the "thinking cycle." Can't sleep so you think about why you can't sleep. Then you think that the thinking is what is keeping you up so you try to think about how to stop thinking. Once you've thought and thought about that, you give up to only circle back to thinking why can't I sleep??

I hate it when "sleepers" (those that have no sleeping issues) try to offer me suggestions. "Just go to bed and close your eyes, you'll fall asleep." Negative Einstein. 

 

OR have you ever had the idea of trying to exhaust your thoughts (as in, think until you run out of thoughts) so it stops the "thinking cycle"? It sounds GREAT in theory. But yeah, uh...no.

 

Also my MIL always tells me to "just close your eyes, breathe, and relax" and at that point in time I want to punch her in the face.

 

 

Anyways, has anyone found this magical, gift from God sleeping pill that I so desperately seek????  Or is anybody even happy with whatever med you take for your insomnia?

 

TBH after trying several sleep-aids including OTC & prescription (everything from Trazadone to Ambien to Seroquel), and nothing worked.... I, myself, had over a year long battle of getting off all BP, depression & anxiety meds to "start my body fresh" after a bad chemical dependence on an AAP & Benzo (per pdocs advice and under doctor supervision).

 

My personal battle is that I had to find out why exactly my sleep fucking sucked, and what my body & brain needed to fix it.

 

However do understand, in retrospect, I did not have just insomnia. I would have insomnia strikes and then go on sleep binges. My sleep was royally fucked up.

[Velvet Elvis]

LOL Yes, right on point!! Especially the "thinking cycle." Can't sleep so you think about why you can't sleep. Then you think that the thinking is what is keeping you up so you try to think about how to stop thinking. Once you've thought and thought about that, you give up to only circle back to thinking why can't I sleep??

I hate it when "sleepers" (those that have no sleeping issues) try to offer me suggestions. "Just go to bed and close your eyes, you'll fall asleep." Negative Einstein. 

 

Why I drink at night.

 

I've been trying to stop and haven't slept more than a few hours at a time in days.

[Bonita]

Why I drink at night.

 

I've been trying to stop and haven't slept more than a few hours at a time in days.

 

 

lol Yes, I know that some of my issues are a partial cause to my insomnia, yet my insomnia began long before I had any other issues/problems.

 

Velvet, been there. I've spent many a nights drinking at bedtime, just in hope of falling asleep. Major disappointment when you just wake up a few hours later. Also I've found the the GP (general population) seems to then think you have a drinking problem when you try to drink to sleep method. lol Because of all my meds I rarely do/can resort to that angle anymore. If I do, I plan ahead and skip a couple pills it would otherwise interact with.