Canucklehead Posted March 31, 2014 Share Posted March 31, 2014 Hello. You can call me Canuck... because, well, I'm Canadian. I'm a 30 year old guy working verrry slowly through an undergraduate degree in Music/Theatre & Film. I would love to be a working actor. I prefer stage to screen, and musical theatre holds a dear place in my heart. My current diagnosis is bipolar disorder. Bipolar I with psychotic features, to be exact. I had psychotic symptoms even as a child, and frequently held the belief that if I had a photograph of someone, or a poster or picture, they could watch me out of the eyes of their picture. My sister had a Spice Girls poster in her bedroom and I was absolutely convinced that Baby Spice was spying on me. I also believed that if I thought about someone, like a friend, they would be able to see out of my eyes. To be honest, these are enduring delusions that I still believe frequently no matter what med cocktail I am on. The mood symptoms began with puberty and gradually got worse. In 2008 the moods were so pronounced that my therapist made me promise to go to the hospital if I was in danger. One day the people on the subway were telepathically telling me to die, so I went to the hospital. They admitted me, but I guess they discounted the psychosis because first they diagnosed me as atypical depression. Eventually the mania and psychosis came out, and I shut myself in my hospital room and refused to come out because I believed that I was radioactive and people would die. My diagnosis was amended to be bipolar I with psychotic features. My current psychiatrist is wonderful, I am so lucky to have her. For a short while, schizoaffective was being considered as my diagnosis. I haven't had intense or lasting psychosis for about a year though so I think it remains bipolar. I am also transgender, female-to-male. My bipolar disorder was relatively under control until I started hormones. Since then, it's been a scramble to find the right medication. I am not on the right medication yet. I've been mostly depressed since January. That's some of who I am. Nice to meet you all. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Wonderful.Cheese Posted March 31, 2014 Share Posted March 31, 2014 Hi. I'm 30 and SZA bipolar female. Nice to meet you. I did some musical theatre not by acting but was actually in a pit orchestra. I even got accepted to a summer school for children and adolescents who excelled in music or theatre. It was my niche in school. The band geek. Haha. I did pit orchestra, pep band, marching band, etc. I recently sold my clarinet and I miss it. During my short college years I played In the college band too. I like to sing too. Never had any training but I like karaoke. Anyways sorry now I'm just blabbing. I think you will like it here. And lol your profile pic is funny! Lmao clever! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
olga Posted March 31, 2014 Share Posted March 31, 2014 Hi, Canuck and welcome to Crazyboards. I ask new members to please read the rules, just so we are all on the same page. I enjoyed theatre in college, also, but I really loved the backstage stuff. When they picked me to be in a play, I was usually a spear-carrier or the middle-aged auntie. It sounds like you have traveled a long and lonesome road. I hope you find our website to be supportive and informative. olga Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Phoenix_Rising Posted March 31, 2014 Share Posted March 31, 2014 Hello Canuck and Welcome to Crazyboards! I'm glad you have a good pdoc. I'm sorry you've been having troubles since you began hormones. I hope things even out soon. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
writehellarandomshiny Posted April 6, 2014 Share Posted April 6, 2014 welcome to the boards. enjoy your stay. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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