i have hated my dad for as long as i can remember. i hate him for many reasons. he has been verbally abusive towards me for my entire life, in the past he has denied that i have any mental illnesses, but now he does believe in them. however, he thinks i am the reason i have mental illnesses. i feel that i can not speak freely when i am around him. i have begun to have violent thoughts whenever i think about him.
By Dr. Marshall
I must confess I do sometimes. The biggest lie was few years ago when I regularly came to her, took my prescriptions and didn't take the meds for almost one and a half year. It ended up with mania and psychosis of course and all came out. She wasn't angry with me, my family was though as I lied to them too. She only said I must have had some reasons to do that and she understands.
I know it shouldn't work like this but knowing her for so many years I sometimes know exactly what she's going to say and do wiht my treatment and I must admit I manipulate the information I'm giving from time to time.
Please tell me you do the same sometimes... or? are you always 100% honest with your doctor?
I've been on SSDI for the last 4 years. I moved in with my parents because and I wanted to help them afford their bills, and it would make life easier on my not having to deal with the stress of managing finances. I'm 28 now, and over the last 4 years I have been struggling with alcoholism, smoking, and a drunkenly abusive mother. I used to give them my entire check of $944, but about 6 months ago I decided to make my own bank account and start saving money, while still paying a good portion of the bills.
It's come to the point where I am getting worse and worse being in this environment and I have to change it if my life is ever going to get better. I stopped drinking a few weeks ago and have been using nicotine patches. Sometimes I get very anxious and depressed because of the environment here and have small relapses. And not being able to sleep without being drunk has been a massive issue. All of this is compounded with the daily stress of living with drunk, abusive parents. The other morning my mother woke me, and violently attacked me; clawing and scratching my neck, ripping my shirt, etc. She is angry I've only been giving them $700 instead of the $944 I used to give.
At this point I have saved a decent amount of money, enough to make the move safely with a bit of money left over in case of an emergency. I have been worrying about my options though. Right now I'm getting $944 a month, and no other benefits. I am trying to find a decent place to move into, near bus lines and walking paths because I have no car. What worries me is a few things: I haven't had my name on a rental contract since 2011, and have no credit so I'm afraid my applications for apartments will be rejected; I'm worried about my benefits decreasing if I move out to be alone, and worried I won't be able to afford food. I won't be able to contact the SSDI offices until Monday or Tuesday, so waiting is killing me and making me sick with worry.
If anyone has any experience with this I'd like some knowledge or advice on how my benefits could change if I move out to live alone, if it's possible that I'll be able to receive aid with buying food, and especially what difficulties I might have trying to apply for an apartment without having decent credit or a rent contract since 2011. I'm talking about a regular apartment, not assisted living or Section 8. I've never been evicted and ended all my previous rent contracts on good terms.
Thanks for any help anyone can offer.
Hi all. My girlfriend was in therapy in college and the Dr there had given her depression/anxiety meds but she's run out. She felt like they helped but wants to put a label to what's going on so that way the meds will be a better fit. We moved so she's seeing a therapist outside of college for the first time, every two weeks for about 6 months and she feels like it isn't helping. She does get along with the therapist.
I sat in with her on one of the sessions when my gf wanted me to give my POV of what her emotions/mood swings/outbursts are like. The therapist seems to be very focused on changing her way of thinking which is good but says a lot of things like "happiness is a choice" and other similar things regarding happiness. My gf wants to be happy and does have negative thinking and emotional outbursts, mainly anger and sadness. She's very down about therapy and feels like the sessions recently are a chore and hates going to them because nothing has changed.
I'm not sure what to help her look for when we move again soon and search for another therapist. Does anyone have any recommendations? She would like to be diagnosed and feels like a bad person/that something is wrong with her that can never be "fixed."