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I was relying on my landlord letting me have a pet. I knew having a pet would motivate me to get up. To go out to buy supplies for them. To have something which *needs* *me* to nurture and care and socialize with them. To have a responsibility to make me think twice before doing something.

 

But they said no. I can't find anywhere else to live that allows pets that I can afford. I don't know what to do. I can't really get out of my contract. When I had pets they were my life, they cheered me up when I was down. I live alone now. I feel like I'm going to be lonely until I can get a job (never?) and afford somewhere that will allow me to have a pet. I've been desperately trying to see people every day so the loneliness doesn't get to me. Everyone seems tired of me because I talk to them every single day and ask if they want to meet up.

 

I can't help feel that I am going to start going downhill again because I have no reasons left to bother getting better. I have no partner anymore. I have no pets. I live alone now. I have no one for company but myself.

 

I can care for others but not for myself.

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Is your landlord opposed to all pets or just cats and dogs?  I know a few people on the Boards that have guinea pigs and are totally in love. 

 

And it could be that the people you hang out with aren't sick of you at all -- you may just feel that way.

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Where do you live?

 

I lived in housing with a no pets rule before, and they made an exception with a doctor's note. I did have to pay a pet deposit, though.

 

I'm in the US (Missouri) and I was in section 8 housing.

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I'm very sorry, I understand how you feel.  While you're sorting though this, would you be interested in volunteering at an animal shelter?  If you commit to being there on certain dates and times the dogs will rely on you for walking, the cats and rabbits for play and socialization, etc.  It's not quite the same as having someone to cuddle with you at night, but the shelter animals will certainly need you to care for them.

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My dog gives me a reason to get up and go for a walk.... must also prepare / buy food, clean up after it, etc.    Although I meet all the basic needs I worry I can't give the emotional attention/affection that dogs require.

I really find the whole giving attention, talking to the dog,  petting, etc, hard work and irritating when I am down...... which then leads to me feeling guilty and worrying that I am somehow emotionally abusing my dog....

 

Plus the OCD kicks in and I end up washing my hands after every time I pet him or he licks me, etc. 

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I already volunteer at an animal shelter, which I love. But going back to an empty home is hard.

 

I live in the UK. The landlord has said 'no pets' basically, when I suggested something like a small animal in a cage they still said no.

 

Thank you everyone for your replies so far.

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My dog gives me a reason to get up and go for a walk.... must also prepare / buy food, clean up after it, etc.    Although I meet all the basic needs I worry I can't give the emotional attention/affection that dogs require.

I really find the whole giving attention, talking to the dog,  petting, etc, hard work and irritating when I am down...... which then leads to me feeling guilty and worrying that I am somehow emotionally abusing my dog....

 

Plus the OCD kicks in and I end up washing my hands after every time I pet him or he licks me, etc. 

 

That must be really difficult. My dog is pretty content to snuggle beside me on my bed for hours at a time (once she gets her walks), so being depressed works just fine for that. She's very affectionate and likes to lick faces, and she's little and has very soft fur so she gets petted and picked up almost constantly. (When she was at the vets for her kennel cough vaccine she licked his face so thoroughly afterwards he had to go and clean her slobber off his glasses afterwards.) I wash my hands if they are very slobbery and before I prepare food or eat and otherwise just live covered with dog cooties.

 

That's such a pity, konata. I hope you'll be able to live somewhere with pets in the future. My dog lives with my parents and I miss her so much.

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I wonder if your landlord would be okay with a fish or two? Maybe if you disguise it as a "water garden" or something, with aquatic plants and stones, snail, etc..

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I live in an apartment where it is strictly no pets. I gave up my corgi to a family member (shes now enjoying a very lazy retirement at the age of 15 which makes me happy). 

But when my depression hit me again, just as I was finally diagnosed with bipolar, my case workers agreed I needed a pet back. Having someone who relies on you, if you are a very empathetic person, can pull you out for a moment or two. My depression is very selfish. And so I raised money and got myself Lucifer, my pet rat.

 

I hid the flat pack cage in a box and put him in my purse and thats how I got him in. We have a live in building manager who lurks around and I've been taking him for a walk and as soon as I spot him I plop Lucifer in my bag.

 

Last week I had a flat inspection and I simply put him in a small carrier under my desk and since it was daytime, he was sleeping and not making noise. I hide the flatpack cage behind the couch. 

 

Tomorrow I am getting three rats, from a rescue. I have no doubt that I'll be able to keep four rats without anyone knowing. It helps having friends/family in the area to take them on inspection days etc if you don't know the day/time someone is coming.

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My dogs have helped me through many of my long black periods. Even if I don't care for myself I know they need me to ensure they are fed, watered, walked..all their basic needs met. Like a previous poster mentioned I do worry that I am unable to provide the emotional affection they need. I do the best I can and they really are the biggest reason I am still here. They love me unconditonally and can sense any changes in my mood. If I have a crying jag...they are all gathered around me wanting to help like some sort of canine group therapy session. I also have a very needy Sugar Glider who depends on me immensely......

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you can, yes. it helps prevent tumors, which females are prone to getting. also it will stop boys from scent marking all the time. 

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This is really tough.  I'm sorry you're going through that.  I live in the United States and all you have to do is get a note from your doctor saying that the animal assist you and is an important part of your treatment.

 

If that works you'll have to pay a pet deposit though.  Please keep us posted.

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Is it possible to get an emotional support animal where you live? Your landlord might be forced to allow you to keep it similar to if you were blind an needed a seeing eye dog.

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I'm not sure about an emotional support animal in the UK - I know that psychiatric service dogs aren't recognised here... But thanks for the replies everyone. I'll keep you updated if anything changes...

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