jyk55 Posted June 26, 2014 Share Posted June 26, 2014 Well Hello My name is jayike you can all call me jyk (I hope this is the right forum ) So about 10 months ago I was diagnosed with schizophrenia and put on to a dose of zyprexa olazipine . since the days rolled on I got swaped to risperidone which isn't doing diddley squat my doctor wont change it the voices in my head tend to laugh at my attempts to rid unwanted thoughts about being gay(which iam not) evil thoughts about stabbing my mothers partner , and basically telling me the complete opposite of what I really believe in deep down , well I cant really relate to deep down because the 6 mg of risperidone I am on at the moment take away all my emotions aside from crying when I watch the news wtf I never cry . I no longer have sexual erges which as a 21 year old or any one knows this is not fun . I have no connection with loved ones I say I love you but really hasn't got much meaning other than a word . basically I just wanted to talk to some other "crazy" people "nutters" as I am refered to bye all my "mates" who have disappeared funny that I was told bye my pysch that I am suffering from a drug induced physcosis not schizophrenia which is funny because in between him answering his phone during our session and walking out putting the aircon on freezing when he could tell I was cold (I was wearing a bloody singlet) and his poor English skills which I had to refer to my physc nurse for assitants in understanding him I got rather frustrated so I ended up agreeing with what ever he said. so basically what led to my problems starting were my grandfather and father died in the same 8 months my mum lost her house I was being bullied at work and I delt with it bye smoking 2 grams of weed a day which I know a lot of you will say its my own fault and I agree with you there but I am were iam at now and that's trying to desphyier what I keep telling myself is just my concuissions but I am beginning to belive that I am actually hearing voices not like when some one talk to you but your own head telling you messed up things can any one enlighten me I now see a new doctor who also picks up his MOBILE during visits and refuses to swap my medication hes words "i see every one for a range of problems' which leads me to think he doesn't know squat about my condition aside from being tossed around to 5 different places looking for a physch I am over it lol . this is a short get to know me I could've gone on for hours please exuse my spelling because I am a high school drop out I cant help it thanks for reading jayike Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
olga Posted June 26, 2014 Share Posted June 26, 2014 Welcome to Crazyboards. I ask all new members to read the rules. You will find them at the bottom of the page, on the right. I'm glad you came here. You will find other people in your age group with a similar diagnosis, and I think it helps a lot to talk to your fellow nutters. Let us know if there is anything you don't understand. Good luck! olga Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jyk55 Posted June 26, 2014 Author Share Posted June 26, 2014 will read them now Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MiaB Posted June 26, 2014 Share Posted June 26, 2014 Welcome to CB! It sounds like you have a whole mess of things going on right now, and I'm sorry for that. This is a good place to meet your fellow crazies. Feel free to read through the various forums and jump in whenever you feel ready. I'm glad you joined us! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
writehellarandomshiny Posted June 27, 2014 Share Posted June 27, 2014 Welcome to the boards, I hope you enjoy it here and find comfort. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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