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My name is Allison or Alliy but I might not remember that tomorrow.

I am 22 years old almost 23 and am a housewife who stumbles through mental illness one confusing, chaotic, messy day at a time.

I have been diagnosed correctly after years of medications and doctors who would rather write me a script that listen to my distorted mumblings but that is beside the point. I was finally diagnosed as Major Depression Disorder with Psychosis which only happened after a minor nervous breakdown and a stint in a hospital. I was released yesterday after 6 days and 1 spent in the er trying to get a bed for me.

 

I have hallucinations that are vivid visual and audio.

I have memory loss in the short and long term.

I have crippling anxiety and a mild case of ocd and the occasional stress induced seizure.

 

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Welcome to CB Alliy.

 

It's good to have you here. This place this great to discuss questions and concerns, as well as rant and cuss in blogs, about struggles with MI.

 

I'm glad you finally got diagnosed, although I am sorry to read you have to go through what you do. At least now though, you will be able to get the proper therapy, resources, and medications that you need.

 

See you around.

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Hi, Allison, and welcome to Crazyboards.

 

I ask all new members to read the rules, just so we're all operating on the same page.  If you did that already, then you're all set.

 

It sounds like you've had a difficult time getting an accurate diagnosis.  That seems to happen more often than it should.  I hope that now your medical team will be able to treat you effectively.

 

Good luck and I hope you like it here.

 

olga

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Hey. Welcome to CB!

I'm glad that you've come to join us. It sounds like it was quite the journey to get here! It can be frustrating to feel unheard. It's unfortunate that it culminated in a hospital stay, but I'm glad that you feel that you've been heard and understood. That's so important.

I really relate to the funky memory and the "well, I guess that's my name..." aspect of things. 

Looking forward to seeing your posts around :)

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thank you to all who welcomed me, it was much appreciated and am glad I found people who understand.

I had my aftercare appointment today and it was horrible. I had to reschedule the appointment because while I was waiting yesterday I had a strong anxiety attack and had to leave. I got to see the doctor and he was a pretentious jackass. He took me off of the only medicine that had even halfway worked for me and put me on abilify. He also officially diagnosed me with PTSD. I put in for patient assistance and pray I can keep my medicines affordable. I cannot work and am in the 3rd appeal process for ssi for the second time so I don't have any money. My husband cannot work because he is my fulltime caregiver and I cant seem to function without him. We are living with his dad and little brother and his dad pays for my medicines and appointments. It is so frustrating to fell nothing then after weeks of abyss feel so much emotion at once. My family doesn't understand what I go through on a daily basis and the sheer helplessness and hopelessness I feel with my illness.

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Hi welcome to CB. Sadly, in my experience, a LOT of health workers just don't give a stuff. If you're not an easy fix they send you on your way with nothing and leave you to flounder helplessly hoping to find someone else who can help.

Good luck with the SSI appeal. I hope you can get it sorted. I too am in the process of fighting the system who refuse me because they think my diagnosis' aren't "fully treated" (and they will continue to state this as long as there is a medication or diet I haven't tried).

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I'm seeing a new dr and she is amazing.

She changed my medicines and i'm now on invega 6mg,trazadone 300mg,paxil 40mg and vistaril 25 mg.next month i get invega sustanna shots.

I got a case worker and a new old diagnosis of schizoaffective(schizophrenic and clinically depressed) and severe anxiety disorder.

The hallucinations have gotten worst and my memory is horrible but i pray the invega works.

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Hi, welcome! Glad to have you here.

 

I hope the new meds help. I find I have less side effects from Risperdal Consta shots than I had from Risperdal oral pills. I hope it works in your favour. I'm very glad you like the new doc.

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