hello my name is

[beauty for ashes]

maybe later

Edited August 14, 2014 by beauty for ashes

[olga]

Welcome to Crazyboards.  I hope you will hang out and read some of the forums here, and it's perfectly okay if you don't want to post.  We have lots of lurkers here at CB! 

 

If you do decide to introduce yourself, you will find that this is a friendly bunch.  A little wacky, of course, but friendly.  I hope you'll stay with us.

 

olga

[saddest]

Hello

[beauty for ashes]

i don't know if anyone knows what i'm talking about, but sometimes its so hard to talk about what is screaming inside you for help.  i know i have ptsd, i know i have mvps and hashimoto's thyroiditis. i know i'm depressed and severely isolating myself. i and know i don't sleep until 5 or6 am and then sleep as long as i can without fear of making my mother angry.  i know that i'm holding it all in hoping waiting praying begging for my ssdi to go through, so that i can get out of this prison. i don't know if it is a real prison or a prison of belief.  i don't know if i'll ever feel safe again.  i just don't know. i do know that for years i would do anything and see any doctor i thought would help me get "better" i applied for all the aid i could. i cried out to my brothers and sisters for advice.

  i know that physically i am so weak now and so "out of the window" as i call it. i'm scared of what's happening in my own body and mind. 

 i know i have to keep talking about this and try to connect, or i'll quit fighting.

     thank you for listening.

[saddest]

If you ever feel like you want immediate help, or even just immediate company, use the chatroom here. And of course by now you'll know there are subforums for just about everything imaginable. Plus a blog function. It's a good place and I reckon we can all relate to being at war with our circumstances and our minds.

So I'm sorry you're in bad shape, but I'm glad you found this place. I'm new too, but have already gained hugely here - by listening and reading and talking.

I have ptsd in common with you - there's actually even a private forum within the ptsd forum for that. And the anxiety and depression subforums are really good too. Aaaand the meds ones and and and ...

I'm so glad you're talking and connecting.

[Phoenix_Rising]

Hello and Welcome!  I'm sorry you're experiencing some problems.  Do you have a therapist you can talk to?

[beauty for ashes]

i don't right now, the last experience was really traumatic for me,i'm trying to formulate a new plan.  i live in a seasonal town so not a lot of choice + no money=

confusion and frustration.

thank you saddest, for your heartfelt welcome.  you don't  know how much that means.

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[cupid]

hi! welcome

[beauty for ashes]

thanks!