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Hello. I'm 'Nobdy', real name is Andrea. Most call me Andi. I'm 35, married, have 5 kids (4 girls 10, 11, 15, 16 / 1 boy 18). I found this site while looking for ...... Idk..... Some sort of like-minded people who may be experiencing or have in the past experienced any shred of what I am going through. Been on meds for depression for years, only madd me feel numb. Recently had failed suicide by overdose attempt, ended up in behavioral hospital for about a week, came home on new meds (trileptal), saw new hospital recommended psych who put me on seroquel. After a week I was feeling worse than ever before. Actually stopped talking to my husband because he called the ambulance and is the reason that my long-awaited attempt to end my misery failed. I recognized that this was a ridiculous thought pattern as well as everything else that I have been thinking, so I hit the interwebs and found crazyboards. Made me smile for the first time in days so I am here. Nice meeting you all through your intros here. Look forward to talking with you all.



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Hi, welcome. We're chatting in chat right now!

You've gone through a lot recently and you deserve a break from it. 


I'm glad CB could make you smile!


If you have any questions, don't hesitate to ask. 

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I hope you will continue to question your doctor about your medications.  Depression can be treated effectively, and he obviously hasn't found the right combination of meds to help you.  It's very hard to advocate for yourself when you are depressed, but I hope our crowd of cheerleaders will convince you to march back into that office and state your case. 


You deserve to have a rich and rewarding life.

It is not good if your meds twist your thinking so that you stop talking to your husband.

You shouldn't feel numb, or speedy, or erratic, or angry on your meds. 


Don't settle for a twilight life---you've got a lot of wonderful events ahead of you, with all those kids.  Proms, college, marriages and grandchildren---you deserve to be functional and be able to enjoy your kids and their successes.


I'm glad you came here and I hope you stick with us.



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Hi, I'm glad you found CB too. If it weren't for failed suicide attempts, I'm guessing a lot of us wouldn't be here (including me) so that's one thing I now thank God I failed at. It might not seem like it now, but your still being here is going to be a good thing.

Just reading your posting makes me feel like I'm not alone in things I've gone through .

I went to the hospital for a week a few years ago and it was horrible.

I have a 10 year old son and am now a single mom. I was married when I had to go to the hospital. My husband was part of the reason I finally broke down and went to the hospital.

Any way, I wish I could know and tell you this will get easier soon, but I can only tell you it will get easier one day. It may take time, and it will probably take some spins on the medication merry go round to find a combination that works for you. I'm trying to find a combo that works for me now (the one I was on stopped working two years ago and I've been trying different things since then).

Just find a good psychiatrist who will work closely with you.

I know its easy for me to say, but don't hold it against your husband for calling the ambulance. If he didn't care, he probably wouldn't have called, and it seems like that would have been a much worse outcome.

You may have done the same thing if the situation was reversed and you were scared for his life.

Just look to the future and try not to burn the bridges that you may still need to cross to move forward.

BTW, I was thinking about your username and just wondered where that word: nobody came from? Did someone not have a body, just a head? Sorry, guess that was a crazy thought, but don't we all have those ;-)

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Thank you all so much for your warm, heartfelt responses. I appreciate each of you for taking time to ' talk' to me.

Just to update, I have been to the doc, explained my recent feelings / thoughts she switched me to Latuda. This is morning 2 on it, and I don't know if it's hopeful thinking or stopping the seroquel has made me feel better already, but I do feel much better.

Auroramyst- lol! 'Nobdy' is from Homer's Oddysey when Odysseus was held captive by The Cyclopes. I found it clever and humorous then, and it's just one of those things that's always stuck with me. Weather it's because it's how I'm feeling about myself at the time or because I find it humorous to see 'Nobdy logged in', or 'Nobdy posted.....' I've used Nobdy as a username for as long as I can remember. I found it particularly fun when I played World of Warcraft. If I messed up during a group event, 'nobody messed up' would be accurate and and usually turn a frustrating situation into something we all could laugh about.

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