KuntryGRITS Posted December 5, 2005 Share Posted December 5, 2005 Well, my name is Melissa. I'm 23 years old. Now that the formal stuff is out of the way... This a lot harder than I thought it would be. I might as well just get out. I've been self injuring since I was 13. I've been diagnosed with severe major depression and post traumatic stress disorder. That means nothing to me. All I know is that I feel miserable. At night everything is worse, as it always is. The flashbacks are so real, at times I have trouble recognizing them for what they are. I'm learning to deal with it, but it's hard going. Lately, I haven't been able to sleep. I've been eating very little. I don't feel real. It's like all this is a nightmare that I haven't been able to wake up from. I'll have to finish this later. Melissa Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lisa_K Posted December 5, 2005 Share Posted December 5, 2005 Hey Melissa...Glad you made your way to the boards...Ive been experiencing SI since I was a little girl and PTSD as well...so I can relate to the hardtime youre going thru. If you need help with anything here, feel free to send me a PM... welcome to Crazyboards....Lisa Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KuntryGRITS Posted December 6, 2005 Author Share Posted December 6, 2005 Thanks Lisa! Things are going much better today. In fact, it's the best day I've had in a long time. Nothing really special happened. I think it was a good night's sleep that did the trick, although I still woke up about every hour. I think I'm going to have to break down and call my p-doc. Right now though I'm not too worried. I have an appointment with my T on Thursday. I'm nervous because it's the first one since she sent me inpatient and I feel like nothing's really changed. I don't know. Everything feels hopeless. I want to go back to school. Transportation has been and still is a problem. I'm scared to death to drive. I guess the first thing is to figure out what it is exactly that I'm afraid of. I haven't figured it out yet. More to come later! ~Melissa Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lisa_K Posted December 8, 2005 Share Posted December 8, 2005 Thanks Lisa! Things are going much better today. In fact, it's the best day I've had in a long time. Nothing really special happened. I think it was a good night's sleep that did the trick, although I still woke up about every hour. I think I'm going to have to break down and call my p-doc. Right now though I'm not too worried. I have an appointment with my T on Thursday. I'm nervous because it's the first one since she sent me inpatient and I feel like nothing's really changed. I don't know. Everything feels hopeless. I want to go back to school. Transportation has been and still is a problem. I'm scared to death to drive. I guess the first thing is to figure out what it is exactly that I'm afraid of. I haven't figured it out yet. More to come later! ~Melissa <{POST_SNAPBACK}> I know how that feels...the fear...I also know the driving situation...I havent driven...legally...ever. I have had epilepsy since the day b4 my 15th birthday and it hasnt been managed so well...and in Indiana, you have to go so long without a seizure to obtain a license...and Ihavent ever been able to do that...so I also understand the frustration with driving...Im too scared at this point, I think, even if I were to go for a long period ...to try...but I dont know...its a weird decision...I'm glad to hear that you are doing better...everything will come together...it just takes time...Lisa Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
scatty Posted December 14, 2005 Share Posted December 14, 2005 Hi Melissa! I am afraid to drive since an accident several years ago. I hope to face this fear after I've been stable for a while. Welcome to the boards! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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