When my psychiatrist quit, I had no idea. I was assigned another one, who will very likely leave me. It's one of those programs where the doctors are all residents. I walked in, and the lady at the desk told me the doctor left. Wasn't a big deal. I see the psychiatrist for meds. As long as the meds work, all she needs to do is write prescriptions. I do like that she's nice.
So now my counselor quit and I only cry when I think about it. Five years. I had her before either psychiatrist. She closed the doors. No more patients. Doing her own thing now. That's awesome. She referred me to another whom she knows personally and met while working together. I'm sure because she's sure I'll be fine.
But I was already perfectly fine and dandy, and didn't really see the need for her to leave and for me to see a new lady. What am I supposed to do? The appointment is scheduled. This woman is, as long as we get along, my new counselor. It's a whole new person I am supposed to trust off the bat, and confide in. I'm supposed to assume she knows what she's doing. We're starting on our third date here, and I'm the only one in the relationship freaking out.
If you've done this before, what's the easiest way to start over? I know she's a different person, and it will be like starting from scratch for me. Old counselor sent her notes and talked about me. I'm going in blind and she is not, but it's not about her.... so, okay?
Anybody get to a point that they don't want to do anything but sleep. Been like this about a month and it's getting worse, I'd sleep all day if a could. If I am awake I just huddle in a ball watching reruns of Roseanne while dozing off and on. Also, just to note there hasn't been any med changes to cause this. It's times like these mania starts looking real good. Anyway, has this happen to anyone else? Is this severe depression or something? Crashing..........
I feel like doctors don't take me seriously anymore. They ignore my long-term, not as easily explained symptoms. One is my blurry vision. I mention it to a doctor/therapist/psychiatrist and they just sort of nod and then never mention it again. Despite the fact that it's the reason I don't get a driver's license, which makes it hard to find work in the field I studied in. And another problem is that I had symptoms that mimicked DID for a few years. They vanished, over a year ago, and no one except my therapist will even address it. And my therapist has a bunch of conflicting theories, one of which is REALLY insulting. And it seems to be the one she's grabbing onto right now, even though her earlier theories made a lot more sense. My therapist had been hoping the psychiatrist would help explain the DID symptoms, but he didn't even address them. It came up, part way through the diagnostic session, but he then dropped it and never brought it up again.
I just want some answers... and it almost feels like if there isn't an easy one, they just pretend the problem doesn't exist. I know it's hard to diagnose something after the fact, but they could at least be more helpful. Like, I know my therapist is trying. I know she is. But I feel like she isn't really listening to me. Like, I'll explain why a theory doesn't make sense, and she just kind of nods and then repeats the same theory next session. She could at least refute my points This is like. One of the first times I've ever disagreed with her, too. Most of the time, I take her word as the truth. But this argument just makes no sense.
I wasn't going to say exactly what she said, but it's really upsetting and maybe writing it here will help. So she basically said that I was inducing the symptoms as a way to fit in with my friends, who also have mental illnesses. Which makes no sense, because some symptoms appeared before I met them. Not to mention, some of THEIR symptoms didn't become apparent to me until AFTER the DID symptoms started. They then felt comfortable enough to open up to me. Also, I was terrified and ashamed of a lot of my symptoms, worrying that I was a burden. Doesn't that completely conflict with wanting to fit in?
I don't know. It just really upsets me. I feel like people in the medical field have their own ideas, and will discount all evidence to be correct. I used to have a doctor who was OBSESSED with making me gain weight, to the point of messing me up pretty bad. Another who thought I had a disorder that caused me to mishear words, but I then learned that she had written a lot of papers on that disorder and was probably just wanting me to have it so she could study me. I don't know. I just. I'm so sick of doctors not trusting me. They all think I'm a liar, or a faker, or something. I just want someone to believe me.
Sorry this rant is so emotional.
I am unsure if I am posting in the right place, so I apologize if I am. I just got word two days ago that my psychiatrist is leaving the clinic that I go to, and that next week is his last week. When I asked the office staff where he was going, no one knew. This is really hard for me to deal with as I became emotionally attached to him. He only worked at the clinic that I go to for a little over a year. This is a huge shock to me. I was told that I would be put on a waiting list for the new psychiatrist who will be replacing him. I have trust issues and I am wary of seeing someone new; and this is really upsetting to me because I really trusted my pdoc. I am wondering, that if he is staying local if I am allowed to still see him? and how can I found out where he is going if his office staff won't tell me? will my insurance company know where he's going, or are there any other resources that could help me find out where he is going? A lot of things were left unanswered for me and I would really like some closure. I am having a very hard time dealing with him leaving, any advice is much appreciated.
Today I have slept too much, and I've been doing this pretty much everyday for the past few weeks. Since being taken off of Seroquel XR 100 mg a few months ago I've kind of been a mess, like my mind has been much more chaotic and full of unpleasant thoughts. Seroquel XR 100mg helped, but it caused weight gain, and I need to lose weight (lots of weight). Next time I visit my psychiatrist I'm going to ask him about putting me on something like Seroquel that doesn't cause weight gain and diabetes. I'm not psychotic or bipolar BTW, I have severe anxiety, but yet the Seroquel helped my mind and thoughts.
So I sleep for about 3 hours every afternoon. Many times it's b/c my mind's too anxious, or I feel overwhelmed or depressed, or sometimes it's b/c I'm bored, but today it's because I felt tired. I have been letting the dogs I walk lick me all over my face, nose, and mouth, and I wonder if I got something from them, like a parasite, b/c I feel weaker than before, but that's also a good thing. I also didn't wash my hands last time I handled them, b/c I didn't see a sink, and all they had was hand sanitizer. When I feel weaker my mind has less energy to worry, over-think, or get depressed. My mind has been too overactive since going off Seroquel, and it's hard.