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How do you keep from bingeing?

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I've had bulimia for15 years, with small periods of treatment and recovery. I'm really struggling right now- I cannot stop myself from bingeing/purging. I have eaten away most of my money and I feel like crap most of the time. I have decided that today will be a binge-free day and I really want and need to be successful at this. I feel like if I can have one good day under my belt I can improve my chances of keeping it up. What helps you keep from bingeing? Looking for some support and/or advice, maybe even just some words of encouragement...

Thank you,

Van

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hi van.

 

i'm also struggling with binge eating right now. it's definitely one of my worst problems and has been for a long time, i find it helps to sort of chart your feelings and thoughts throughout the day to figure out what your triggers are and what helps and what doesn't. do you binge most often when you're sad? when you're stressed? are there certain foods that set you off? is it related to how you feel about your appearance at a given time? i'm trying to take note of stuff like that.

 

you're not alone, though, i and many other members of CB deal with bingeing. bulimia and BED are incredibly stressful illnesses to have and those who have not experienced them just don't get how hard they are to deal with and how they can take control of your life. i get it and you're strong for wanting to help yourself.

 

are you in therapy right now?

 

http://www.getselfhelp.co.uk/docs/BulimiaSelfHelp.pdf

 

i had this PDF saved on my computer. it might be of use to you.  :)

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Wow Cosima, thank you for sharing that document- it has some really useful tips/food for thought on there.

 

I'm sorry to hear that you are struggling, too. I'm going to try an figure out what some of my triggers are, too. I can definitely see that being helpful.

 

I am in therapy, although for financial reasons it is not as often as it could be for maximum benefit. Also, I stupidly told my therapist that I just wanted to address the anxiety and depression, as I don't feel ready to make huge changes to the E.D. I think I'm afraid that she will push me to make too many changes, when I really just want to work on one thing at a time. I always thought if I tackled the other issues, the bulimia would just go away on its own... I see how silly that sounds, however (I think I'm being a bit of a coward to be honest).

 

Thank you, Cosima, for your encouragement and letting me know I am not alone <3

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My pdoc put me on naltrexone, which helps with the cravings.  I still get hungry, but the cravings like when I felt like my body was addicted to food and I couldn't stop eating once I started are mostly gone.

 

I wasn't put on it for my ED (I'm recovered) ... but pdoc didn't want any ED behaviors to come back.

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Hi Van. I've struggled with binge eating for 13 years and bulimia for 5 years. My bulimia is currently in remission. I use my ED as a coping skill for my BPD.

 

What I find that helps me if I have an urge is chewing gum while smelling something really strong (i.e. lotion, perfume, hell even fabric softener) until i feel like I'm tasting it. Another thing is I find bingeing on really thick, chewy, bready or crunchy foods (i.e. steak, bagels, chips) makes me less likely to purge, because I'm scared I'll choke on my own vomit and die, and that's not how I want my story to end. Also smoking cigarettes helps me with urges to purge, because when I smoke after eating I feel less full and bloated.

 

I also have a harm reduction tip: if you really have to binge, try taking a gulp of cold clear fluids (i.e. water, gatorade, diet soda) between each bite of food. You'll become fuller faster without ingesting as many calories, so you'll feel less guilty. If you really can't live with yourself feeling that full and you have to purge, It'll be a little easier on your body.

 

I hope you can put that bitch Mia in her place. Stay strong!!

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Thank you, Melissaw72 and Baepolar :-)

 

I didn't know there were meds for this! I might ask about it at my next appointment.

 

Thanks again! I had a binge-free day yesterday so I am feeling a bit more optimistic and motivated 

 

Van

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I don't have anything to add, but I wanted to say well done on the binge-free day, and leave you some encouragement to keep going. 

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