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So hi, I guess :I

My name is The Squid Kid. It's not my real name, just on here. 

My real name is Henry and I'm 17, and my name my voices gave me is 12. 

So I hear voices. Some days are good, some voices are good too. But I feel like I've been lapsing out of reality into a world of nightmares :o 

I was admitted for a week because I couldn't get a psychiatrist, I built a tower in my backyard, and I tried to stab my mom. Usually I can know if my voices are telling me to do something bad, and I can restrain myself. BUT THAT TIME I COULDN'T D: 

I now am diagnosed with Psychosis NOS and I think they are leaning towards Schizophrenia

A bit about my voices:

Sometimes I hear generic voices, whispers, Siri, Elmo, a pirate, the movie trailer voice guy, and astronauts. Sometimes I hear and see Hindu Gods, and one time I met the real god. I see squids and my cat in places a lot (hence the squid kid name) 

In order to cope, I make electronic music, wood carving, paintings, (bad) drawings, and I like incense. I want to use drugs but everyone says its a bad idea to keep doing them. 

 

SO YEAH THATS ME :3 I want to make friends on here who are similarly aged to me :3:3:3:3:3

:3 the cat rat wants me back :3

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Welcome to Crazyboards.  I hope you make some friends here.  We have lots of people who can relate to your experiences.

 

olga

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Hello and welcome, Squidy! It's nice to meet another person in a similar situation, kinda. I can draw some connections to the things you experience, like command voices. I'm a few years older than you. I hope you'll find this site as useful as I have, it really helps being able to draw parallel to others, to know you're not alone at these times.

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Hello Henry and Welcome to Crazyboards!

I think you'll find a lot of people on the Boards that can relate to your experiences. Are you currently under the care of a psychiatrist?

Please feel free to contact a staff person if you need anything!

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I'm much older than you (30) but I've been dealing with voices my whole life. Mine put me down,  tell me to do things I shouldnt do normally, etc. I've never reacted on any thankfully. Well I did kick down an old roommates door cause the voices said she was talking shit about me... but nothing else. They haven't written anything in stone saying I have schizophrenia, but my doc asks me to keep him well informed of the voices just in case.

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