Feelingcrazy Posted June 6, 2015 Share Posted June 6, 2015 (edited) Hi! Have had symptoms of bipolar since high school but wasn't diagnosed until 2006. Was suicidal in the past but have gotten that under control in the last 6 years. My ex husband didn't think I needed to take pills to get through life so once I took them and "got better" he would throw them away. This happened several times in out 14 year marriage so I just tried to deal with things the best I could. When he started having an affair with my best friend and told me he was divorcing me and taking the kids b/c I was a crazy bitch, I finally took a bottle of hydracodone with a bottle of crown. After calling the police and getting me to the hospital to pump my stomach, they sent my to an inpatient hospital for help. That's when I got the diagnoses. At first I was relieved b/c at least I knew what was wrong and could fix it. He ended up marrying my friend and I got the kids but man, I e put them through enough shit to last a lifetime. I realize there is no "fixing" it. I seem to eventually screw up ever job, relationship and friendship. I somehow managed to find this site. Reading things that others are going through and realizing I'm not alone has really helped. People don't really understand how hard the struggle can be. I've kept my sense of humor but am at a very low point right now. Hoping these boards will help bring me back up. Suicide is not an issue. I don't want to die but most times I just want this crazy ride to stop for just a bit so I can catch my breath for the next round. Edited June 9, 2015 by Feelingcrazy Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
olga Posted June 6, 2015 Share Posted June 6, 2015 Beth, welcome to Crazyboards. You have found your people, and I hope it is helpful to share your story with us and get some support and advice from our members. Let us know if there is anything you don't understand. I'm glad you came here. olga Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kateislate Posted June 6, 2015 Share Posted June 6, 2015 Welcome! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Feelingcrazy Posted June 7, 2015 Author Share Posted June 7, 2015 Beth, welcome to Crazyboards. You have found your people, and I hope it is helpful to share your story with us and get some support and advice from our members. Let us know if there is anything you don't understand. I'm glad you came here. olga Thank you so much. It's nice to know there actually are people out there that understand. I'm hoping this is what I need to get rid of all the confusion and craziness in my head. Haven't ever had anyone to talk about this with. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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