Been lurking around for over a year, guess its time to say hello

[bittenkittenx]

Hi! I'm a 30 year old female from Tucson, AZ. My name is Tabi (pronounced like the cat, spelt like the Japanese toe socks). I am a vet tech with 2 beautiful cats (one is special needs, sorta) and a spotted pitbull. He seriously looks like a dalmation. I am a rapid cycling manic depressive bipolar. They think I might have schizophrenia but I don't talk to my doc about it much because it doesn't affect me. I also have epilepsy and a nasty little condition called syncope (I faint for no reason. Blood rushes out of my brain into my legs and boom I'm on the ground. Fun times). Although mu doctor is a little against it, I live alone, which scares me too but I like my independence. My pitbull (Bubba) failed out of all the therapy and disabled handidog classes or else my doctor wouldn't be so worried. I'm a huge doctor who fan and anything (well almost) anything sci-fi. I love wintage cars, mainly the German cars. I ramble a lot, as you can tell by now. It causes me a lot of problems unfortunately. I'm in love with my male best friend and he with me but he wont leave his girlfriend for a what of, which I respect. He makes sure I take my meds (cause ill definitely forget... I have to write it down in a daily planner to keep track). My family doesn't understand what I'm going through. It freaks my mom out, so she just kinda does the over protective mom thing. Which usually upsets me more. Dad does better, he tries to get me to laugh it away, though I just go back to before after we get off the phone. My grandparents think I'm faking it for attention and wont admit anything but the epilepsy is wrong with me (they think the syncope is me getting attention). The guy I'm seeing refuses to talk about it with me, which as of late I've thought why I'm even with him. But low self esteem wins every time. But that's me in a nut shell. A very long nut shell

[jt07]

Welcome to CB, Tabi! I'm glad you finally decided to join us. Things are a little messy around here right now due to the upgrade, but if you have any questions, please feel free to PM me or another staff member and we will do our best to answer your questions. We have plenty of folks who share your diagnosis, and you should find a lot of support here. Again, welcome.

[bittenkittenx]

Messy doesn't bother me. Its a much cleaner website in this state of mess than others I've been to. 

Support is definitely something I'm looking for. My family as I mentioned doesn't really get what I'm going through. Its sad really. My mom went from being a drug addict to being a cna (certified nurses assistant). But with all her medical knowledge she still can't handle her broken daughter. 

[just Kelley]

Hi Tabi, 

I  also have to be reminded to take my meds.  I just wanted to say that and hello ?

[olga]

You're not broken, Tabi---you are Mentally Interesting.   We are all Interesting around here, so you will fit right in.

We also have a lot of animal lovers.  Welcome to our happy zoo.

olga

[xmo]

Hi Tabi! You know, my mom has a master's degree in psych but when I first wanted help at 15, she essentially ignored it (denial). She's accepted it now that I have a proper dx, but for the longest time, she refused to accept that anything was wrong with me. As a result I remained un-treated for like 13 additional years bc even as an adult, I had no health insurance until I went to the free clinic. I hope your family comes around someday.

Also, kudos on living alone. I mean, I know you said it scared you a bit, but living alone is a life goal of mine I have yet to achieve. So good job on being able to do that! esp. since you're a rapid cycler. I know that can interfere with l a lot.

Welcome to the party!