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I have a dark, defeatists attitude.  I will migrate to the negative view.  I rarely can or will hold on to positive things, I miss out on life's joys and pleasures as I have been in the pit for so long

So, my therapist has asked me on a daily basis to come up with 3 positive affimations.  I have expanded it a bit to include things I am grateful for as well. 

I started to list my three things in my blog, probably still will.  I have found it difficult but really rewarding.  Really really rewarding.  I have to think hard some days and others they flow.

I want to hear your three things.  I want to pass on the change that I have been given from what seems a simple task.

So I will go first:

1) summer is here

2) I love the color green and am surrounded by it.

3) I get joy out of coloring, makes me feel better and distracts me when I need distracting.

 

Okay so what are your three things?

 

 

 

 

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Having the kids home for the summer - no morning struggles.

Having the windows open, I love the breezes and the birds.

Having a 28yo daughter who is taking my teenagers off my hands for a week - priceless

​That is a blessing ... I'm glad you will have some time to yourself :)

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I have a dark, defeatists attitude.  I will migrate to the negative view.  I rarely can or will hold on to positive things, I miss out on life's joys and pleasures as I have been in the pit for so long

So, my therapist has asked me on a daily basis to come up with 3 positive affimations.  I have expanded it a bit to include things I am grateful for as well. 

I started to list my three things in my blog, probably still will.  I have found it difficult but really rewarding.  Really really rewarding.  I have to think hard some days and others they flow.

​this is a great idea, dragonfly.  used to do this in therapy. let it go. should try it again, as i default to the negative, pessimistic and would probably benefit from forcing my mind more to good things and to gratitude.  today as usual i woke up wishing i was dead. this will be a challenge.

1.) i am caring for myself by eating better

2.) grateful for the cat and wildlife out the window

3.) reaching out, not isolating

 

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My mood might be on the upswing. 

I have a great picture of my dog smiling and I made it the lock screen picture in my phone so I am constantly reminded I'm loved. 

I actually cooked dinner last night. 

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pride, prejudice and zombies 

Hell to the yes. Did you read Sense, Sensibility, and Sea Monsters?

I love my husband.

Though aged, my dogs are both healthy.

My best friend is getting better. Most days, she's OK.

 

 

 

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