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I'm not sure if I want to let my delusions go


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Don't get me wrong I really hate them as they take up a lot of time (it's like a full time job having a delusion) and they cause a lot of worry and anxiety but I know how the ones I have work and why I have them and if these ones go I'm worried what the next delusions could be - I may not like them but I'm used to the ones I have and I don't know how I would manage having to cope with new delusions. Of course I might not get another delusion but I'm being realistic here and with this disorder it's pretty much a given that they're going to make an appearance. Does anyone else ever feel the same about delusions and letting go of them?

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FWIW Mine haven't changed with time, just how much I believe in them. At the moment, I have a lot of doubt and can put them aside, but I am not 100% sure they are not true. I haven't truly let them go, I just go with consensus reality more. I don't know what others do.

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I hate them too and know also how much time they can consume. It is like a job. It is never ending. I wish I could kick them for good but thoughts are always being put in my head and I can't control that at all. I can sometimes put them out of my head briefly but they sneak back in. I want to let mine go but can't.

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I finally let my delusions go, but it wasn't easy.  I still have days though where I wonder about them and how the "people" are doing (who were in the delusions).  I feel tempted to summon them back sometimes but if I distract myself I eventually don't feel like it.  I still feel like cameras are watching me everywhere, but I don't think specifically about it anymore.  I loved that life.

But I'm into reality right now, and don't want to slip back into the other life.  It seemed to get me into a lot of trouble and I don't want to deal with all of that again.

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I think I've gotten so used to having them that if they were no longer there I think I'd feel a little lost.

I can really relate to this.  It happened to me when I got some reality checks that the delusions weren't real, plus I went on meds/adjusted doses.  It was so hard, and I felt lost, transitioning from my "life" of delusions to reality and the real world.  It was very hard to let go of all I knew for many many years.  All I can say is that it takes time to get used to.  I can't remember anything specific that I did to transition other than give it time.  But I agree, when the delusions were gone, at first it made me very lost.  I found my way though.  I think you can too.

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I think I've gotten so used to having them that if they were no longer there I think I'd feel a little lost.

I can really relate to this.  It happened to me when I got some reality checks that the delusions weren't real, plus I went on meds/adjusted doses.  It was so hard, and I felt lost, transitioning from my "life" of delusions to reality and the real world.  It was very hard to let go of all I knew for many many years.  All I can say is that it takes time to get used to.  I can't remember anything specific that I did to transition other than give it time.  But I agree, when the delusions were gone, at first it made me very lost.  I found my way though.  I think you can too.

I hope I can find my way too but I know it's going to take time, effort, therapy and medication. 

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