WinterRosie Posted July 30, 2015 Share Posted July 30, 2015 I've been fending it off all day... that itchy feeling to feel something other than emotional pain. I prefer when my body hurts, rather than anxiety or the emotional flooding that I consider a flashback.I'm so tired. I can't keep fighting it tonight. I've been doing "little things" to try to satisfy the urge... they're not enough, but they're still far more than a not-SI'ing population would ever engage in.I tried chat... I'm sorry. I know this is a pointless post. I just want understanding that it's so hard... and how exhausting it is. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Queenie Posted July 30, 2015 Share Posted July 30, 2015 I know how you feel and you're not alone.I have been fighting it for what feels like forever and tonight I don't want to admit it but I know I'm going to give in and you're right it's so hard and takes so much energy just to hold back.Just remember this is only a set back not the end. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
WinterRosie Posted July 30, 2015 Author Share Posted July 30, 2015 This is not fair! I woke up and the urge is still there! I don't want distractions, and I don't want to have to cope with it, I just want it to go away Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rabbit37 Posted July 30, 2015 Share Posted July 30, 2015 I'm sorry, Rosie, I've been thinking abou you all morning. Yeah, it's tough, it sucks big time. I hope you've been able to stay safe. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
flowerseverywhere Posted July 30, 2015 Share Posted July 30, 2015 We're in the same boat. Let's sail away to a tropical island and relax.. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
WinterRosie Posted July 30, 2015 Author Share Posted July 30, 2015 Thanks for all the thoughts and well-wishes. They are much appreciated.I've been with people all day so far. First I went for breakfast with my friend Gee, and then I rode my bike and did some errands for him (he left something important at home that I went and got). Then I saw tdoc. Then I met a woman in the park and she took some pictures of me because I need them for work. She also took a picture of the ducklings for me because I was sort of obsessed But now I'm home and Fuzzy leaves in a few hours so I'll be alone... and that's when the trouble really starts. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Geek Posted July 30, 2015 Share Posted July 30, 2015 Sounds like a busy day! Good for you for coping for so long. I know it's crazy hard. Try doing some nice things this evening after Fuzzy leaves. Are there tactile things that might help? Doing some art about it? Doing things that feel nice on your body like taking warm bath (or cool one, this time of year!), putting on lotion, wearing your favourite clothes, etc.? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
WinterRosie Posted July 31, 2015 Author Share Posted July 31, 2015 I'm super-particular about tactile things. I don't do lotions or creams at all because I don't like the texture (spray-on sunscreen is brilliant. I never wore it before). I don't really want to have a bath, although I guess that I should have a shower after riding my bike so much in the heat (it's been in the 30sC or high 80sF)I think I promised tdoc that I would watch the Lego Movie tonight. There is definitely some art that needs to be made (including some for another staff member here) but I'm not sure if I have the focus. We'll see. Thanks for the list of options. I tend to forget. Well, I suspect that we all do sometimes. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sickofmeds Posted July 31, 2015 Share Posted July 31, 2015 some ppl say those with schizophrenia are sensitives, empaths, healers and part of Christ-consciousness. Lewis Mehl-Madrona (PhD in psychiatry) has a cpl of books that might help, also a facebook pge - Coyote Healing and Healing the Mind through power of story. another view is to let go of what you don't want - quantum thinking, kinesiology is also useful, identifying stresses and removing them, also other alternative therapies such as reiki, seichim, emotional freedom technique, best wishes. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
WinterRosie Posted July 31, 2015 Author Share Posted July 31, 2015 While I'm empathetic, I'm not schizophrenic. I've also never heard of Christ-consciousness, although it sounds more Christian than I tend to ascribe to.There really isn't anything in your post related to SI. As a result you make no sense. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Queenie Posted July 31, 2015 Share Posted July 31, 2015 I'm glad I'm not the only one that didn't get that.I hope you're feeling better WinterRosie. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Gearhead Posted July 31, 2015 Share Posted July 31, 2015 Sickofmeds, this is a pro-med and pro-treatment website. If "let[ting] go" of what ailed us worked, we wouldn't all be here. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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