AnnaBanana Posted November 4, 2015 Share Posted November 4, 2015 I have something going on and I go to the pdoc on Thursday, but I just wanted to get some like minded opinions first. I've been mildly depressed for about a month now. I figured it was just situational, I'm under financial stress, I hate my job, me and my mom are at odds, etc. It's definitely getting worse, so I think I'm past the situational and moving more into full blown episode territory. It's been a really long time since I've been depressed so I'm having trouble figuring out if I'm heading towards a more depressive episode or into a mixed episode. I remember the feelings of a deep dark intense depressive episode, but the starting down the path symptoms elude me. Mostly I am unmotivated, tired, irritable, a little snippy, have some minor anxiety about decisions (minor and major), my concentration is pretty shot, but I can focus on some things, like a good book. The thing that bothers me the most is the irritable, impatience and snippiness. Fortunately I'm mostly managed the keep the impatience and snippiness in my head. I haven't vocalized it yet, much. But I do notice my mental thoughts are getting increasingly negative. So does this sound more like your depressive symptoms or does it sound more like going into a mixed territory? As I said I see my pdoc on Thursday, but some opinions would be greatly appreciated. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Gearhead Posted November 4, 2015 Share Posted November 4, 2015 Well, that could be either, and let's not forget that one can turn into the other. The important thing now is to get to your pdoc-which you're doing, good call-and get a med that relieves your symptoms. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
melissaw72 Posted November 4, 2015 Share Posted November 4, 2015 What you write about sounds similar to what I have been going through for awhile now ... depression. I'm not totally out of the depression yet, but I'm getting there little by little. It seems like it is lasting forever this time. Quote Mostly I am unmotivated, tired, irritable, a little snippy, have some minor anxiety about decisions (minor and major), my concentration is pretty shot, but I can focus on some things, ^^ In addition to this I can get very cynical about people and their "motives." Everything seems to lead to crying or at least tearing up, especially if something doesn't go how I thought it would go or planned it to go ... I tend to blame it on others (not to their faces, but I make it clear, sometimes indirectly) as to what went wrong as being their fault. I hate who I become. So all I can really do is take one day at a time. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Redemption Posted November 4, 2015 Share Posted November 4, 2015 When you say ' mixed episode ' I'm wondering how you feel during those moods. Except for one major depression when I went to bed for three months, my depressions are always a mix of depression with agitation. I'm never lethargic, just the opposite I feel manic; manic and depressed is the definition of ' mixed '- I think ? Reading your post it sounds like a maybe your unhappy situations with money, mom, and a job you hate are the culprits, however, we know the way certain events can trigger our brains where something biochemical goes wrong. I agree with seeing the psych doc. If you have a therapist that could help. These nagging worries about going into a deeper depression are not good for you, as there's too much on your plate as it is. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
random_woman Posted November 4, 2015 Share Posted November 4, 2015 My beginning depressive symptoms usually are feeling bad about myself, feeling shame and having trouble not thinking about things that I think I could have done better. It's all about not being good enough. Thats my personality, I guess. You may experience depression in another way. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
crtclms Posted November 4, 2015 Share Posted November 4, 2015 I get all your symptoms, plus I start "having the flu" all the time: I get achey, and nauseated; I always have a headache already. So at first I think "Oh, shitty luck getting all these bugs in a row." Then it dawns on me. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
enduranceessential Posted November 4, 2015 Share Posted November 4, 2015 The biggest thing for me is utter loss of enjoyment in favorite activities. In the beginning of the depressive episode I stop cooking, caring about my appearance, or doing anything if possible. Feelings of guilt and regret and avoiding all social contact come later...I am coming out of an episode now, and these problems are starting to subside. If you can enjoy a good book despite the concentration issue, that might be a sign it's not pure depression. I'm glad you are seeing/talking to your pdoc. Be well and hang on! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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