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I'm off meds.  (I'm taking a supplement called EnBrace which is supposed to help depression, and I guess it helps some.  Not sure.)

Every day I feel like crap... every day, a million things bug me, make me angry.  People piss me off.  I don't want to be around anyone.  I am not a nice person.

I don't feel particularly depressed, although I am NOT happy about anything.  I have no skin, everything gets to me.

I am a totally different person when off meds.  When I'm on them, I can brush things off more easily.

What I want to know is, is this state of being annoyed and pissed and stressed NORMAL?  Do normal people who don't have to take meds feel this way?  It really sucks.  I want to move away from my family and hide from any kind of interaction with people.

One more thing:  I heard voices once since being off meds and I keep imagining spirits are trying to communicate with me.  I keep thinking I see them fly around in my house.  WTF is going on?  Mild psychosis perhaps?

 

BTW I tried to get in to see my pdoc but she is out of the office till the end of January... god, this sucks.

 

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Does your pdoc know you're off meds?  What you're describing is pretty much exactly how my depression begins to manifest, and after that comes the suicidal ideation and wanting to hibernate.

 

No, that state of being so easily annoyed is not normal.  It is probably directly linked to going off your meds, just like the voices and spirits which are probably not a part of consensus reality.

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Thank you.  The doc does know I am off meds (I had been wanting to get pregnant which is why I went off them, but now I'm just not sure)....I actually heard the voice of the kid I'm supposed to get pregnant with calling me "Moooom, Mooom," so now I feel like I have to get pregnant, or else the kid will be stuck in the spirit world, but I feel so crappy that getting pregnant is probably a horrible idea.  I keep seeing little ghosty things flying around the room and I know it is just waiting for me to get knocked up so it can reincarnate again.

I guess I realize how weird that sounds but the trouble is, I actually believe it.

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Sounds like how I get sometimes when I've been depressed. Sorry you are experiencing this. And no, it really isn't normal. At least I don't experience that when my mood is level.

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3 hours ago, larali said:

What I want to know is, is this state of being annoyed and pissed and stressed NORMAL?  Do normal people who don't have to take meds feel this way?  It really sucks.  I want to move away from my family and hide from any kind of interaction with people.

 

 

No, I don't think it is normal.  Normal people might feel this way at one point or another, but all the feelings do not stay around for a long time. 

I feel the way you describe a lot, but for me it usually means a med tweak.

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 I live so much in a state of annoyance that it is starting to feel normal. You sound a lot like me. My body reacts so poorly to antidepressants that I don't take them and instead focus on treating my insomnia and anxiety. However this does not help if I find myself in a big-box store or restaurant, esp. at the holidays. Good luck and let us know how your doctor helps you when you get back in

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