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After seeing a number of people comment on showering being a difficulty, I thought it might be a good idea to start a little chat about it!

This is something I've had a lot lot lot of trouble with over the past few years and have been wondering if it's something I should have thought of as a precursor to psychosis. I've had depression/anxiety for forever, and I developed psychosis about 7 months ago. It's been much worse since then.

Anyway, showering feels terrible for me and like, just too much to handle. I have always showered at night, as being naked, cold, and wet in the morning is the worst feeling ever for me. 

How do you guys who struggle with this make yourselves shower? I have trouble convincing myself to do it, but I can do a wipedown with wet washcloths and have no problem with my face. My hair is a whole other issue, though. Ugh. 

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Most of the times I've been through manic psychosis, I didn't shower. Because 'omnipotent beings don't need a shower'.

When I've been depressed I wouldn't shower or shave because I couldn't be asked. 

I just recovered recently though from a long depressed episode and I have huge hair bits on my hair that feel like dreads and conditioner is not helping.

During it I went through 2-3 week periods without showering ...but I'm glad I'm more motivated  to take care of my hygiene now. 

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11 minutes ago, StJimmy9151 said:

I just recovered recently though from a long depressed episode and I have huge hair bits on my hair that feel like dreads and conditioner is not helping.

During it I went through 2-3 week periods without showering ...but I'm glad I'm more motivated  to take care of my hygiene now. 

I'm glad to hear you're doing better! 

Yeah, 2-3 weeks seems about right for how long I've been going recently. It's really irritating for me, but I feel like there's some kind of block there. :/

I feel like they make special de-dreading shampoos, but you may have looked that up already. 

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I don't like being wet and I dislike having no clothes on even more. Because I'm now married I can't be as bad as I was before (sometimes a month or more). I've learned to do running in the evening before bed so I get really sweaty and gross and don't have any excuse not to wash myself off in the shower. That's about all that works, otherwise I justify 'bathing' lightly with a washcloth and then wearing my hair a way that hide the greasiness. 

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The only way I get through this is to take a bath, then wash my hair separately in the kitchen sink with one of those things that catch the hair and don't stop the sink up.  I can't stand taking an actual shower.  In the winter my skin is dry, so I take a bath like every 2-3 days, and wash my hair every to every other day. 

Taking a bath I still see all my fat, but I force myself in one anyway because I hate having hairy legs.  Also, if I get an urge to take a bath and I am home and have time, I'll take one right then (at any point in the day) so I don't have to take one later.

I hate seeing myself naked.

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17 hours ago, saintalto said:

I don't like being wet and I dislike having no clothes on even more. Because I'm now married I can't be as bad as I was before (sometimes a month or more). I've learned to do running in the evening before bed so I get really sweaty and gross and don't have any excuse not to wash myself off in the shower. That's about all that works, otherwise I justify 'bathing' lightly with a washcloth and then wearing my hair a way that hide the greasiness. 

I feel ya. The summer seems easier- if I'm hot and sweaty already, I don't mind it as much. 

14 hours ago, melissaw72 said:

The only way I get through this is to take a bath, then wash my hair separately in the kitchen sink with one of those things that catch the hair and don't stop the sink up.  I can't stand taking an actual shower.  In the winter my skin is dry, so I take a bath like every 2-3 days, and wash my hair every to every other day. 

Taking a bath I still see all my fat, but I force myself in one anyway because I hate having hairy legs.  Also, if I get an urge to take a bath and I am home and have time, I'll take one right then (at any point in the day) so I don't have to take one later.

I hate seeing myself naked.

I do too, Melissa. It's a combination of the nakedness and all the water, I guess. It just feels like too much going on for me to handle. 

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The answer is.... I force myself to do it. Luckily for me I am not so far gone that I completely lose reality and just not take one because I am in my own little world. I just fucking hate it. Even now, when I am doing well basically, I hate it. Strange isn't it? 

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2 minutes ago, SchizoHH said:

The answer is.... I force myself to do it. Luckily for me I am not so far gone that I completely lose reality and just not take one because I am in my own little world. I just fucking hate it. Even now, when I am doing well basically, I hate it. Strange isn't it? 

It is certainly strange! Trying to make myself take one for work tomorrow currently. :/

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Days go by you see and there is no motivation to shower and its just ick and "what for" and "I just don't want to..." its when I'm down/depressed/paranoid/mentally just "not right"... 

And I mean - what for and whatevs and NO! I'm not seeing anyone anyway, Its not like I have this cray cray social schedule.... so just no....

That is all... NO!!!

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I don't like being cold afterwords . If I could shower wrapped up in a warm blanket I probably would And my hair goes wild. I need to shower.i work part time and am around people. I really need to take one before work today.

At least once a week whether I need it or not 

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3 hours ago, confused said:

I don't like being cold afterwords . If I could shower wrapped up in a warm blanket I probably would And my hair goes wild. I need to shower.i work part time and am around people. I really need to take one before work today.

At least once a week whether I need it or not 

I hate being cold too ... what I do is jack up the temperature in my apartment a few hours before taking a bath.  Then when I warm up I go and take a bath.

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8 hours ago, Chickenlips said:

Days go by you see and there is no motivation to shower and its just ick and "what for" and "I just don't want to..." its when I'm down/depressed/paranoid/mentally just "not right"... 

And I mean - what for and whatevs and NO! I'm not seeing anyone anyway, Its not like I have this cray cray social schedule.... so just no....

That is all... NO!!!

YES. Exactly. Like, I'll put on deodorant, perfume, makeup, whatever, anything but getting in a fucking shower.

4 hours ago, confused said:

I don't like being cold afterwords . If I could shower wrapped up in a warm blanket I probably would And my hair goes wild. I need to shower.i work part time and am around people. I really need to take one before work today.

At least once a week whether I need it or not 

I hate being cold, too! That's the part I DREAD. I guess that's why it's so much easier in the summer months.

1 hour ago, melissaw72 said:

I hate being cold too ... what I do is jack up the temperature in my apartment a few hours before taking a bath.  Then when I warm up I go and take a bath.

That's such a good idea. I may steal it. However, I can't take baths- this is totally an overshare, but I get UTIs like it's my job, and if I take a bath, it's basically guaranteed I'll get one. I feel like a bath would be a little easier than a shower, though, which sucks for me! I'm glad you have a way around it, Melissa. :)

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