By Imaginary numbers
I am experiencing some difficult decisions lately so i thought i would express some thoughts through a poem.
Here it is:
With one eye opened
Little remains with little hope
I am a savior with a rope
I will not tie it around my neck
I will not jump off this deck
This rope i hold is one of gold
with all its stories to unfold
little remains with little hope
A child, A mother, and a wife
in a rope entwined
This is a reflection of the hardships one should face while growing up and the challenges of money and marriage while keeping this vibe of innocence alive in you.All that depends from society that is usually the challenge of life but imagine how challenging it is if you have mental illness too.
All the support for anyone who ever thought of suicide or attempted.
This is only my second attempt at blogging. The first was about 5 years ago. It was fun, I really enjoyed it. But it fizzled out after about the 3rd day. I have a marked lack of follow through in my personal repertoire of life skills.
Yes three days.....that's about the norm for me. New obsessions, if I do actually act on them, rarely last longer than the 3 day mark.
Usually it's obsess obsess obsess for a day or two, then tell someone about it (because I need another person to validate the worthiness of anything I do), then work frantically at whatever I think is such a great idea, then it just kind of fades away. Sometimes I realize afterward that it was an incredibly stupid idea. The other times I tell myself that I will pick it up again "as soon as things settle down" and I "have more time".
I wonder if anyone can clarify for me when that will happen? Because I have a lot of crap to do at that point and I would like to be prepared.
No? Well, until that fabled free time happens, I will just busy myself by organizing and re-organizing things.
Recently I post several comments on blogs and they haven't showed up on the comment section.
I did receive this message: Your comment requires moderator approval before it will be shown, however, that was hours ago and other messages are already displayed on those blogs.
Curious (and bored enough) to know when they will be displayed.
By Andrew McLeod
I have no idea.
but I'm here, at least for now. i can't promise that i won't run away again, and again..
even if i stay it'll take me a while to relax enough to fully participate - i'm more likely to keep posting in my blog (which i recently resurrected again) but it's invite only at the moment until i feel able to trust more openly. but if anyone wants to have a look around, that'd be ok - just let me know. but i warn you, i take rejection hard and will be hurt if you decide not to stay, dammit.